Time is a weird thing. Sometimes it feels like it lasts forever while other times it goes by in the blink of an eye. It passes by when it comes to the moments we would like to hold on to forever but slowly passes when we cannot wait to get away. This is just another part of life.
Have you ever experienced both of these emotions in a week or less? It can be very confusing and make you question things. Sometimes, it makes you realize where you currently are in your life and push you to where you would like to go next.
I had an interview with an organization last week that I was unbelievably passionate about. I went to bed the night and prayed like I have never prayed before for this once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. I felt that if I did not get this position, that I would actually feel lower than dirt.
The next day I went into a very cookie-cutter interview that made me feel inadequate. I felt like I had failed myself as a Communication Major and that all of the late-night study sessions, coffees from Starbucks to keep me functioning in class, cramps in my hands from rapidly taking notes, and actually challenging myself with classes was a waste. It was the worst feeling.
But then I stopped and realized everything that this major has done for me thus far. It has made me a confident public speaker, an eloquent speaker, and someone who actually cares about human interaction and communication and how important it is in our society. Maybe I was not the issue. Maybe this was an organization who gave ME a bad impression.
After I realized that I was still confident in my abilities, I received another call from another organization that wanted to interview me for a position. I instantly lit up with a smile and realized that there were better things out there for me. I started to google requirements for future jobs that I would dream of having and realized that an internship with this specific organization would be the best step in the right direction.
There are several morals to this story:
First of all, do not put all of your eggs in one basket because it might not work out for you in the end. I am so glad that I put myself out there and applied to ore than just one position.
Second, something in life that you may initially view as an amazing opportunity could really end up to be a dud. I did not like the way that my interview was conducted and realized that I would not want to spend my summer with people who did not value the same skills as me.
Last but not least, do not give up on yourself. I knew I was more than prepared for my interview and ended up blaming myself for a crappy interview. If you are confident in yourself, then you will feel and be successful.
It's crazy to think how much can change in a week.
