As I left for college, I thought that all my relationships would remain in tact. The miles didn't seem to bother me because I knew that I could keep in touch, but it's really whether they want to or not. Since I left for school around a month later than everyone else, I tried reaching out to some people just to check in and see how they were doing. I was excited that all my friends got to move on to bigger and better things, they deserved it...we all did. When the phone calls stopped, and the text messages were few and far between, I guess that means it's time to accept that people just grow apart and life gets in the way, which is okay. I'm not saying that I haven't changed either because I did and everyone does at one point. As you get older and gain more life experience, we as humans naturally evolve. College is a crazy point in one's life. It's insanely busy but also supposed to be the best time in your life. It's different than high school because the best friendships you make are completely random. It's not like your going to forget the memories you've had with your old friends, but you're ready for new exciting moments with new people. It kind of sucks when you realize that a friendship is fading. I sometimes felt like I had failed in someway but that really is not true. As hard as it is to accept, maybe some people aren't meant to be in your life forever. I know it sounds completely crazy to think that someone you feel like you've known forever, won't actually be there forever. Friendships are very beautiful yet a confusing thing sometimes. My favorite part in finding new friendships as I get older, is when there can be silence that isn't awkward. Where you can have those moments of silence and peace but be completely engaged. I'm not here to lecture you or anything, but find those types of people. I can't really tell you why you should find those people but I can tell you that those are some of the best moments. What is so beautiful and delicate about friendships is that every single one is different, and there is not two that are the same. So I guess what I've been trying to say is, live in the moment. Don't try and predict what's going to happen or over analyze situations. Just enjoy the time you have with the people you are with because you never know if it is going to last a lifetime or just one night. Either way though, it doesn't matter...just be present.
"The hardest part is accepting how people change and that alone changes everything." -R.M. Drake
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