Sometimes I wonder why we’re all here. What higher power are we serving and for what purpose do we serve? Where did we come from? Please don’t tell me that we’re all descendants of extra - terrestrial beings or that we’re all created from one man and one woman… I’ve heard all of that.

Now, think for yourself. Don’t repeat what others have told you, or thumped into your brain with a book, and you’ve blindly accepted to be true. Actually, think for yourself. Yes, I do agree that there is some type of higher power, maybe even higher powers. What I don’t agree with is the light that some people put on this being. This being we call God. A God wouldn’t hurt and cause pain to someone, his or her “child”, and just let them suffer. A God wouldn’t turn his/her back on the very people that he or she created and claimed to love. For all the good people that have done nothing but live and caused no one harm, a God would reward them, wouldn’t he? If a person had faith in this God, would God make them suffer?

I don’t want to offend anyone, that’s not what I’m trying to do here. I’m just trying to get answers to so many questions that keep haunting me. I’m still searching for “my” place here on this earth and for what purpose am I here? I’m trying to find “my” beliefs and if I believe differently from others does that make me wrong?

I have been on a “not so traditional” spiritual path for many years. I am not a religious person but I am a spiritual person. I was raised in an Old Baptist tradition and it’s hard to shake some of those views even after being on my own for 20+ years. I just wish life didn’t have so many “rules” that one had to follow to be granted a place in the afterlife. I don’t even know what that means.

Rules that tell you that you must do this but you can’t do that because you might have fun and if you have fun you’ll go to hell because you enjoyed yourself. Whatever happened to having fun and enjoying life as long as it doesn’t hurt anyone in the process? Right now, if I died this instant, according to many people, I would go to Hell… because I haven’t been “saved” and I don’t attend church. What does that have to do with me being a good, upstanding person and trying to help others while doing so?

I see it this way: as long as we are living a good life and helping others that we encounter, while being on this earth, then why should we be condemned to an afterlife of Hell fire? That just doesn’t make any sense to me. Does that make sense to you? Have you ever just stopped and pondered the thought of how we “really” came to be?

Now that I’ve most likely offended most of my readers, I leave you to ponder upon this conundrum.

Thank you for taking time out to read my rant… sometimes I just can’t help myself.