You’re going to want to run. You’re going to want to run as fast as you can. You’re going to want to question the slightest change in pace and the slightest change in tone of voice. You’re going to want to make yourself believe it’s too good to be true. You’re not going to want to listen to your heart telling you to let yourself fall.
Why are you going to do all this? Because you know it’s going to hurt like hell. It’s going to hurt like hell when you fall yet again. When you fall for the boy you thought was the one. When you fall for the friendship you thought would never break. When you fall for the words you longed for so long to hear. Because falling and not being caught on the way down has become a feeling you’ve gotten all too used to. In fact, it has become the new normal.
Slowly but surely, you’ve become immune to the aches and pains; immune to the warning signs; immune to the not so happy ending. Slowly but surely, that immunity will become a safe haven. A safe haven that is ironically not safe at all.
It’s you, trapped inside your own very head, running marathons backward and questioning feelings that were meant to be felt with an open, ready to love heart. Slowly but surely, you’ll be done taking the chances that are needed to be taken to accomplish anything in this life.
But, guess what? It’s okay. It’s okay for a little while. Why? Because you’re human. You’re a human who is afraid. A human who is rightfully so afraid.
In all honesty, who wouldn’t be?
I don’t care if you are the greatest daredevil alive, falling will never not be scary. However, the only way to conquer a fear is by tackling it with all your might.
Afraid of the dark? Sit in a dark room and eventually you will find the beauty hidden within silent, pitch black spaces.
Afraid of storms? Sit on the porch during a thunderstorm, listen to nature in one of it’s most vulnerable states, and you might realize how the calmest, most beautiful moments follow nothing other than a storm.
Falling is no different. Whether it be falling in love or falling for something greater than yourself, you will eventually find the beauty in it. I’m not guaranteeing it will be painless but it will be worth it. Because if you don’t take the chance and fall, you will never know otherwise.
So fall. Fall for the boy. Fall for the too good to be true words. Fall for life. Fall and get back up because there are no limits on falling. Fall until you realize falling was the best thing you could have ever done. Fall until you realize why it was best not to be caught all those other times. Fall until you realize you were able to stop falling a long time ago, and once and for all, live freely and happily again. Just fall.
