I can clearly recall several significant moments--nearly every day--where I say the words, "I'm sorry." Sometimes it's necessary, sometimes I'm saying sorry for tripping on a sidewalk or running into a pole, and sometimes it's even inappropriate. Most of the time, it's because I'm insecure. It's because I'm vulnerable and susceptible to negative criticism. It's because sometimes I feel like everyone is watching me and judging me and saying, "Look at that guy. Who is he and why is doing that?" I am constantly reminding myself that these things probably aren't true, and yet I still apologize. What am I apologizing for? Walking into a public place? Dressing a certain way? Simply existing?
I am an introspective person, always reflecting and analyzing everything I do and everything that happens to me. When something goes wrong, even if I'm not the one to blame, I say sorry. Why is that? It's because I fear being rejected. I fear failure. I feel that if something doesn't happen the right way, then it's all my fault. I take responsibility too easily and too liberally. I'm insecure and indecisive. I'm confused and unequilibrated and I know exactly what's wrong with me.
I apologize too often. I say sorry for feeling things. However, I should feel the exact opposite. I should feel proud of vulnerability. In my opinion, it takes courage and audacity to openly feel things. Instead of saying sorry for having feelings and showing emotion, I should say, "This is strength. This is courage. I am enough." There is no right or wrong way to feel.
The definition of the word, confidence is defined by Merriam-Webster as, "A feeling or belief that you can do something well or succeed at something." It's time to start being confident. Not just me, but everyone. Have confidence about your abilities. Have confidence about your success. Let it drive you. Let it motivate you. Let it turn you into the person you strive to be. You have control over whether your day is good. You have the control to wake up every morning and decide that today is going to be another great day.
You are great. You are funny. You are determined. You are enough.
A friend of mine recently said, "I am a caterpillar right now, and when I become a butterfly, no one will take that away from me." This was really significant to me. Not only because it sounds so profound, but because I related to it so much. At this point in my life, I frequently feel inhibited and insignificant and full of angst. But perhaps instead of trying to cover that up, I should embrace it, translate it, and turn it into motivation. Make myself significant. Allow myself to slip out of that cocoon and fly right into being a butterfly.
What I'm saying is, you have the choice to be the happiest person on this planet. It's all up to you. You have the power to motivate yourself. You're driving. You're in control. You have the freedom to choose. Break those walls down, bask in your vulnerability, and realize that the possibilities are endless. Be confident in who you are and what you can do. You have the complete potential to be totally unstoppable. Channel that, use it, take it how you will; be the greatest you that you can be. You are enough.





















