“I wished you the best of all this world could give and I told you when you left me there's nothing to forgive but I always thought you'd come back, tell me all you found was heartbreak and misery. It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way you're happy without me.”
I had this friend and that was our song. I know it’s a weird song to pick but we always knew that life was going to take us in two separate directions but we never really wanted to admit it. Jealous by Labrinth always reminded us that we would always want to be together and we would miss each other like crazy, but our lives were just going to become too different. We would stay up late (as in 3 a.m.) basically every night. We shared everything about our lives to each other. There was never a secret between us. We were inseparable. We were only friends for a couple of years but I’m glad that I can say that I’ve had a really significant friendship in my life that has shaped me into a better person, even if things did change between us and we grew apart.
We all have those friends that we wish we had never drifted apart from. Sometimes it’s because we just get too busy, we grow apart, or distance becomes an issue. No matter the reason it’s always hard to see those people go that you never thought wouldn’t be there. For me, it was a little different since our paths were leading in opposite directions and we knew it, but it doesn’t make it any easier in the end.
So, one day you find them on Facebook, add them, and then obviously do the creep (like I did). Once you do, you see how their life has changed since you were last in it. It’s great now, right? You see all the trips they’ve taken, their new significant other, their new friends. You want to be the new people. You want to be there with your friend. You’re not, what you are is jealous, though. That’s your old friend, you used to be friends. You haven’t talked to them in years and now that you FB stalk them their life seems to being going all according to plan while yours is all messed up.
That is not true. Yeah, maybe we are having mental breakdowns on a weekly basis, classes are stressful, looking for internships or jobs has become a nightmare, but we are okay. They are also okay. Yeah, maybe they took an amazing vacation with new friends, have real life relationship goals with their significant other, and have a great job. Guess what, though? It was great when you were in their life, too. Remember all the things you guys did together, the laughs you shared? Our lives are bound to change, along with the people in it, the things we like to do, and even our life plans. Everything changes it is just a matter of time.
Time is the one thing that we can’t control. One day you will look back and everything has changed so quickly. It’s okay. Just make sure to cherish the memories you have, enjoy the life you are leading now, and look towards the future with a smile.
