Before I came into this world, I was created from happiness. I was born happy, but somehow down the road like most that roam the face of the earth, I became extremely unhappy. "What ever happened to me?" I used to ask myself. I became unhappy because I lost myself in the negativity of society. No matter what anyone says, society has always sought out to keep everyone the same with the conformity of many things, they seek to show you that you're not good enough or beautiful enough. But remember this: You are enough. You have enough. You do enough. Just relax and purely live life.
A mind. It is strong, yet can be weak. It can be manipulated, yet greatly transformed. It is a terrible thing to waste. Did you know that the more positive thoughts you create and the more you smile and laugh, your mind will feed off of that and reproduce it more often? It is true! Outside of my room, I would walk around thinking about what people thought of me, comparing myself to others who shouldn't have even been near my category in any way, and I also doubted myself a lot. All three are an enormous no no! Each and every one of us on Earth was brought here with a different objective and a different gift. When I stopped destroying my mind like that, I began to wake up to my true reality that was fully controlled by me. However this didn't mean cutting myself off from society nor being rude to them, but it meant that I always had an option for whatever and that nothing nor no one could make me unhappy other than myself. In my mind lives peace. In my mind lives me. In my mind, I am forever free.
When I reflect over what truly made me unhappy, it was actually simple things that could have easily been prevented. The main cause is that I allowed others to take care of my body. Advertisements told me that I was nothing without this hairstyle, shoes, clothes, and especially makeup. I had a crazy routine in the mornings just to look "good", not knowing that all of this only made me ugly internally and externally. Many grocery stores sold me unhealthy food even though it looked healthy, that affects the way you think, feel, and look. Try your best to purely eat healthily. Many hair products have severe chemicals in them to alter your DNA, and you won't even be aware. Try out DIY regimes, and stick to the basics. Everything high priced with a brand isn't always best. If you can't eat it, don't put it on your body. If it makes you feel some type of way or like you're hiding, don't wear it nor use it. Never believe the negative comments said towards your body. Even if you have or haven't saved your body for those who love you enough to make a lifelong oath to God to protect your body. My body is amazing. My body is mine only. My body is a sacred temple.
What is inside reflects on the outside. Your name carries your soul. During my journey to become happy, I woke up every morning appreciating another day to carry my soul higher towards the moon and the sun. "When I move on, what would I like for this place to remember about me?" I wanted them to remember that Ivy was a genuine, loving, queenly, intelligent, hardworking, graceful soul that had enough perseverance to move any world. Every day I forgave myself for my past, I prayed for the world and I, and most importantly I gave myself the time of silence and to be alone. Many who are unhappy don't understand the power nor like to be alone and left in silence. Silence for the soul is like seeds for the soil. You yearn to grow spiritually, as happiness is a spirit itself, a fruit that wishes to bear instead of being thrown against a wall like poison as the world is doing today. Lift your head high, never let your chin down for no one nor anything. We are queens and kings, with high self-esteem. Take care of your soul, and you'll live forever in happiness. I am.
Peace. Love. Kinks.
~Ivy K.
