Every time I go to write something about this subject I can't get the words out correctly. I don't know what it is. I guess it's a fear of being misunderstood.
My main feeling right now, and my overwhelming feeling once I woke up on Wednesday morning, is fear. I may be a white woman, but I am completely terrified of a Trump presidency.
Why?
I'm afraid for my friends in the LGBTQ community. I'm afraid for myself as a member of this community. I'm afraid of more pain and suffering at the hands of those who are so Christian they can't see what Jesus meant by unconditional love.
I'm afraid for the Muslim American community. Not all Muslims are bad, just like not all Christians are good. ISIS=Westboro Baptist Church in terms of radicalization and giving their respective religions a bad reputation. I've heard so many heartwarming stories about the Muslim American community helping those around them. Many more than I've heard about Christians recently.
I'm afraid for the black community of America. I'm afraid already of all of the police brutality they're facing, but now I'm even more afraid because Trump has allowed the racists to seep out of the woodworks and do whatever they want. It's already happening. I'm afraid of a return to what America was like before and during the Civil Rights Movement. But mostly, I'm afraid of finding out we haven't really changed since then.
I'm afraid for the female population of America. Without access to good healthcare, women will start looking for extremely unsafe ways to have abortions. The abortion issue aside, women's healthcare clinics do so much more for their patients than abortions. They're designed to keep women healthy, especially women who cannot afford to go to a regular doctor. The Christian outcry about this issue is one that infuriates me to my core. Talk about condemning someone before you even know their story. I'm also afraid because Trump is a blatant misogynist. This country is already so against women. Instead of working to get better, we've reverted to something that's just a blown-up image of what already exists.
I'm afraid, because everyone around me voted for a man who hates me. I'm afraid because everyone around me voted for a man who hates a good portion of the American population.
I'm afraid because "making America great again" really means reverting it to what it was before. When black people were hung from trees, LGBTQ children were thrown out on the streets by their "Christian" parents, and women were shipped off to a "relative" or even killed for getting pregnant before they were married. I am afraid because America was never great. I'm afraid because of what so many people's definition of what "America's greatness" is is so far from what needs to happen to truly make this country great.
I'm so afraid. But I'm a woman, so who even fucking cares?
