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I'm Not Crazy

You'd think I was crazy if I told you that I spent a week in a psychiatric mental health hospital

Sarah Makiyama
Nov 14, 2016
Texas A&M University
49
I'm Not Crazy

I spent a week in a psychiatric mental health hospital, but I'm not crazy.

I was admitted against my own will, but I'm not crazy.

I tried to leave, but they wouldn't let me.

I'm not crazy.

For the first 48 hours, I wasn't allowed to wear my own clothes, but I'm not crazy.

I tried to commit suicide, yet again for the sixth time, but I'm not crazy.

I hurt so much inside constantly, but I'm not crazy.

I wasn't allowed to even hold a pencil, but I'm not crazy.

I cried myself to sleep the first night I was there, but I'm not crazy.

I was constantly monitored; every fifteen minutes they would write down exactly what I was doing.

I was scared.

I'm not crazy.

I loved the feeling of the blade from the knife against my arm, but I'm not crazy.

I was terrified for what I was going to do to myself, but I'm not crazy.

My freedom was taken away from me, but I'm not crazy.

I'm just depressed.

I struggle to get out of bed every morning, but I'm not crazy.

I hate being around people, because I have to fake how I really feel; but I'm not crazy.

My favorite part of the day is lying in the dark and not having to feel anything, but I'm not crazy.

I was left alone with just my thoughts, but I'm not crazy.

I have multiple panic attacks every day, but I'm not crazy.

My anxiety always seems to get the best of me, but I'm not crazy.

I take multiple sleeping pills every night just so I don't have to keep feeling the pain of all my emotions that are deeply embedded within me.

I constantly feel so alone inside, but I'm not crazy.

I needed help, but I'm not crazy.

I spent a week in a psychiatric mental health hospital, and I got better.

I learned that I'm just as worthy as everyone else; I'm not crazy.

I can't control the actions of other people and that's okay; I'm not crazy.

It's okay to cry; I'm not crazy.

I learned that I'm not the only one who constantly hurts all the time; I'm not crazy.

I found inner peace; I'm not crazy.

I spent a week in a psychiatric mental health hospital, and I'm not crazy.


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