Time makes you bolder
Even children get older
And I'm getting older too

Fleetwood Mac

What is time but a construct of man? As I was approaching my 22nd birthday, I thought "I'm so old! How did this happen?" I love birthdays: the celebration, the caring, and the surprises. However, 22 is not a monumental birthday; it is not like when you turn 18 or 21. It's just another day. I feel like the majority of my childhood was spent waiting to get older, and now that I am older I just want a nap and a juice box.

I don't know how to put it but I feel like, as kids, everyone looks up to the cool kids that are in their twenties and think "Man do they have it together! I wanna be 22 right now." If I had only known then that I'm scared sh*tless about the future. When you see the changes that you experience through a well rounded education of life you develop a rush. The rush that continues to spin faster with no real stop in sight. To many stops in various understandings means the end, but I am nowhere near my end.

I could see myself going down so many roads, however the one that I have been picturing for years and years is to be a mom. The main reason why I want to be a young mom is because my wonderful mother deserves to see her only child have children. I just do not know whether or not I want to "find my self" because once I do I feel like I would be able to grow from there.

People tend to be so wrapped in themselves, their family and work that they do not take the time to experience life. The Buddha states “Ardently do today what must be done. Who knows? Tomorrow, death comes.” I feel like more people need to live in the moment, put the phone down and take a walk outside. On the other hand, I see myself experiencing the world around me because I am still a child myself, having the ability to fully feel what the earth has to offer me. One part of life that I find the most important regardless of what path I take would be to sit outside and just listen to the earth. Listen to the breaths of the trees and the conversations of the children of mother earth. Try something new maybe if you have never been hiking do it, or if you want to take a trip to reestablish your core values, do it! What is stopping you?