So yeah, I'm engaged! I've ben engaged for a year. It's been a collection of the best moments of my life since he proposed. BUT... I've totally been putting off planning a wedding. Parties in general just stress. me. out. Also, my wedding is basically a big show of my love for my fiance and vice versa. It's beyond stressful because:
1.) I don't want to look bad in front of everyone.
2.) It's just so public and there are so many expectations and I want to just say f*ck it and do something simple.
I also know that I can only do it once and I don't want to look back and feel like I sold myself short. So here I am, finishing up my senior year of college and planning a wedding. Let the adventures begin.
Flash back to high school where my dream wedding was outside of my local goodwill... YEAH! I had it all planned out in my head, I would invite people to the goodwill and run inside real fast grab any dress and suits for me and my entire bridal party. Then have everyone in the goodwill come out and watch the wedding, it would of course be raining. Then after the ceremony we would all go inside and sit where ever and order Chinese food from down the street! I'm not going to pretend that I'm not still interested in this idea, but I'm slowly realizing how planned this event really needs to be.
Flash forward to today and I'm becoming that girl with a wedding Pinterest board. Something I never thought I'd ever make, with expensive dresses and color themes and everything. I'm thinking about how to invite my bridesmaids and finally getting my engagement photos taken. Although I never had a traditional view of a wedding, I'm starting to enjoy the process of bringing out my bride side.
I'm praying that the stress doesn't over take me, but I have a great support system that understands I'm very wishy washy on what I ideally want. Ideally, I just want a stress free day to celebrate the wonderful loving relationship that I've built with my future husband. I want people to see that the love we have is real and honest. FYI, you are all invited! Just kidding. Weddings are such an interesting concept and all I can hope for is that I don't get too overwhelmed by the stress of college, work, and planning.
Good vibes would be appreciated.
