Thank you.

Thank you for treating me the way you did.

You helped me learn a lot about myself. You actually helped me learn to love myself. I am much more than just a green-eyed girl with a brain. I am a gem.

I know how to appreciate those who walk into my life. I know how to see and love everyone for whatever it is that they offer. And when you walked into my life in the midst of a chaotic and overwhelming time -- which is almost all the time as a college student, I paused and gave you time. That is a quality you should know about me, you got all of me: the wholeness.

When I care, I care with all my heart. I give my all and I have learned not to settle for anything less. I learned that I deserve better. I deserve the same wholeness, if not more because I have so much to give. The best part is that even when you did not give me the time and attention I deserved, I still valued you.

You made me crazy, insane. When I saw you my heart would fill with joy and I would have the biggest smile on my face and for the rest of the day I would be in the best mood. Who knew that feelings were so great and amazing but terrifying and awful at the same time.

I was caught up on the fact that I was not a first choice for anyone. But then I realized, if your first choice makes you as happy as you make me, then so be it. Choose them. It is okay. Because you know what? It is your loss. I am sorry you did not realize the beauty in me because it would have been good for you. I would have been good for you. But who knows, maybe if it is meant to be and the stars align again, one Fall we might be carving pumpkins together and talking about how ridiculously in love we are. But until then, I am going to “plant my own garden, and grow my own flowers.”

And if that day never comes, then there will be a day where my first choice will also see me as their first choice -- I just have to be patient. Patient for the next time my heart will beat faster than it should when I see that person.

So thank you for giving me happiness and for being kind when I poured my heart out to you.

Thank you for laughing at my dumb jokes and for smiling at me in response to my silly questions.

Thank you for appreciating my honesty and for giving me respect when I was serious with you.

Thank you for keeping me up at night and for making me smile like an idiot every time I thought about you.

Thank you for giving me butterflies -- the kind that I had not experienced before so when they came, it made me tingle inside.

Thank you for "wasting" my time and my emotions and for taking a piece of my heart and leaving me with confidence and strength.

Thank you for not choosing me when my heart chose you.