If you decide to walk out of my life, I won't beg you to stay, but please don't come back. I will respect your decision and hope that you have put a lot of thought into making it.

In return, please respect my decision of not ever wanting you to walk back into it.

I can handle you walking away from me. I can pick up the pieces, force a smile on my face, bury myself into anything and everything that takes you off my mind and I will eventually be OK. I can handle you breaking my heart once, I just can't handle you breaking it over and over again.

I can’t handle when a month passes and you realize that you made a huge mistake.

The social media notifications start to pop up from you, you are testing the waters to see if it's safe. Then the "I miss you" text.

I will ignore you, and that will just make you realize even more. You don’t stop sending texts, even a brief phone call here and there.

Slowly, you begin to try to make plans to see me. You try to secure the connection that you felt with me all over again. You want the emotional aspects of us to be there, and I can't handle building that back up just to lose it all again one day.

I can't handle you making me feel like I am not worthy enough again.

In the beginning, when you looked at me, you had a sparkle in your eyes. I could feel the energy between us, all the passion and love. I remember the exact moment when the light in your eyes for me burnt out, and instead of energy, it felt like exhaustion was rolling off of you.

Distance makes the heart grow fonder they say. I know that if you come back that light in your eyes will be relit and the energy will be more powerful than ever before and I can’t handle watching it burn out again one day.

I can't handle the broken promises.

The promises you make to me of a future that is nonexistent. The promise that you don’t want to hurt me.

In the end, it always hurts.

The promise that I make to myself when I tell myself that I will not allow you to do this to me again, which is the same promise that I would choose to break over and over again, just to spend one more night in your arms.

The promise that you'll try harder. The promise that you care about me and have a love for me. When the truth remains, love isn't enough for everyone.

The promise that you want this when I know that deep down you don't know what you truly want. I can't handle making you my everything when I am just one of many to you.

I can't handle the hope that you bring me.

The hope of sharing my life with you. The hope of always having you by my side. Feeling like for once I finally ‘got it right this time,’ when in reality, it's just a ticking time bomb until you shut me out of your life again and the process repeats.

The hope of being able to watch you achieve your goals in life and being able to be your biggest fan.The hope of a happy, loving and loyal future with you. I can’t handle setting hopes for us just to have all of them taken away again.

Most importantly, I can't handle breaking the most important promise that I made to myself when I was even too young to know what love was. The promise of not settling for less than what I deserve.

I have shared with you what a relationship truly means to me, what I expect from my partner and what I want out a relationship as a whole. You also know my painful past and the importance of having not only a partner in my life but a best friend.

Someone who tries their hardest not to cause me pain.

I deserve someone who looks at me with the brightest light in their eyes. I deserve somebody who treats me every day like I am the only girl in the world for them.

I deserve someone that can match my effort and someone that takes care of my heart. Security, consistency, love and compromise is what I deserve.

I am not going to settle for being with someone that comes in and out of my life causing pain whenever it's beneficial to their own personal motive.

I deserve someone that chooses me every day, over and over again.

I deserve someone that STAYS.