Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and have a conversation with younger self.

I would look myself in the eye, the eyes of innocence, and assure myself that I can achieve anything that I put my mind to. I would tell myself that even though I will go through some of the hardest years of my life, I will make mistakes, and I will see and learn things that won't always make sense, it will all be worth it in the end. Even though things will be rough, I will make it through and I will come out with a smile on my face. I wish I could go back in time and warn myself that I would hold many people up when they are down, and help plenty of people that may not deserve it, but it will strengthen me and cause me to develop a personality that wants to help people even when they don't always return the favor.

But I realize that without those experiences I would not understand why I help people, and I wouldn't be half the person I am today.

I wish I could tell myself not to waste time on people who aren't worth it, and to work on bettering myself.

Although, in the end, wasting my time caused me to better myself, and those experiences have bettered me far more than I could've done by myself.

I wish I could go back in time and hold myself when my heart was hurting, and tell myself that things will get better, things will get easier.

That little girl will put herself through so much, but she will come out much stronger on the other end.

I would show her how great things will be, and how wonderful life, and love is.

I would encourage myself that I can overcome anything, and I can learn anything I want if I put my mind to it.

Most importantly, I think that little girl would teach me a lot more than I could teach her. And in the end, she figured things out without my help.

I don't think I could get a word out before I would realize that my head is clouded so densely with a fog of the future, a fog of worry and anxiety for what will come.

I think that little girl would teach me to sit down, sing a couple songs and play a few games. She'd show me that I need to be taking it one day at a time and not to worry about my past or my future.

If I had that conversation with myself then I believe my life would be much different.

Looking back, that little girl didn't need my help. She pulled through and made things good for herself.

If I could go back in time and have a conversation with my younger self, I don't think I would.

Because I wouldn't change a single thing.

Those things made me who I am today, they taught me strength, love, and compassion. Those things taught me that I am capable of great things. As it turns out, those things weren't as bad as I thought they were, and I am a strong believer in the saying, "Things happen for a reason". I wouldn't trade that for the world, I wouldn't change my life in any way.

Today, things are wonderful. Better than I ever could've imagined, and every bit of me is thankful for every thing I have experienced. I have learned, and grown through the good and the bad.

And I thank God everyday for allowing me to live such a richly blessed life while pursuing my dreams with the experienced I have gained throughout my life.