Similar to most people in high school, I had absolutely NO clue who I was or wanted to be. Do I want to be popular, sporty, funny, talented, smart? My indecisiveness led me to trying each one and deciding if I liked who I was as that persona. I became THAT b*****.
Until my sophomore year, I grew up in small schools who told me who I was supposed to be. When I transferred my sophomore year to a school more than 30 times larger than any of my previous schools, I was terrified. This was my time to create my own identity and the first part of this identity was going to be smart.
I became the teacher's pet slowly, but surely. I quickly worked my way into pre-AP and AP classes while keeping myself low key. I started forming friendships with my teachers which I loved because I got an inside connection to their wisdom. (I also could get away with pretty much anything which was a great perk) I decided that right then that I was going to be THAT smart b****.
After becoming secure in my studies, I decided to start being a bit more vocal. I did not have a filter and everyone ALWAYS knew what I was thinking. I would crack jokes during class and occasionally go off on someone who pushed my buttons. Everyone could tell when I was coming just from the sound of my loud voice, and they appreciated, most of the time, the honesty in my words. Although it wasn't necessarily my decision, I became known as THAT loud, honest b****.
It now was time to start pursuing extra curricular activities. Let me clearly state this: at this point I knew that I was not the sports girl and had no shred of talent in anything musical. There went my chances of being the sporty or theater b****. However, I soon realized that I had a knack for hip hop dance. I honestly have no clue where this talent came from, but I thank God for it every day. I joined the dance team my junior year and became co-captain my first year. (that REALLY upset some seasoned girls) That day I earned the title of THAT dance b****.
By the time my senior year came around I thought I had my identity set as THAT smart, loud, dance b****. Although this was true, I also gained one more title to add to the list: THAT b**** that's going to a top 30 school. I truly believe that my identity that I self crafted led me to this final title. Being a teacher's pet allowed for me to get additional help which improved my grades. My loud and honest opinion helped me write essays and ace interviews that were 100% myself, no facade. By participating and having a leadership role in dance showed that I am creative and have leadership capabilities that could benefit myself and others.
All this being said, I am not sorry that I was THAT b**** because THAT b**** created her dream into a reality.
