I Lost My Edge But I Can't Find The Motivation To Get It Back

I Lost My Edge But I Can't Find The Motivation To Get It Back

No promos, pops, or shoots can motivate me to take 2019 by the neck and chokeslam it.


First things first: making New Year's Resolutions SUCK. Don't do it again.

It's a black hole of confusion and depression that you will forget come March and revert back to your old ways. UNLESS you have a formula of trying new things and being healthier than usual, you are doing well. However, we can all agree that New Year's Resolutions is just a societal excuse and a form of adding to pop culture. I really don't care what people will be saying to debate me, so this is the part where you should stop reading.

Winter Break for seniors should include a free trip to somewhere tropical because I'm losing my mind here in Boston. I can't focus on things, I'm eating too much, and I've resorted to watching the same old wrestling matches on the WWE Network. I realized it's on me instead of trying to find someone to blame. I have to make that change, I have to become a better version than 2018 Jake, and I have to make sure my 2019 is more than just memes and wrestling articles. I have to remain...unshaken.

As funny as it may sound, Red Dead Redemption 2 inspired me this past fall.

Red Dead Redemption 2 [Soundtrack] - May I? Stand Unshaken (Original Full Version) www.youtube.com

It told a great story of examining relationships, being consumed by the power, and not realizing the poison it would bring towards the end. When it was over, I was speechless: how could a video game tell a better story than anything I've heard on podcasts and documentaries?

Here we are, though: writing this article trying to excuse myself and manipulate you all into thinking I'll find redemption.

I just don't seem to know what to do right here and now.

It will be interesting what happens when I get back to school.

I Coulda Been a Contender - On the Waterfront (6/8) Movie CLIP (1954) HD www.youtube.com

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9 Reasons You're Still In Love With Tim Riggins In 2019

Clear eyes. Full hearts.

If you're a Friday Night Lights fan, you know very well who Tim Riggins is. And if you've never seen the show, he's basically just the bad boy football star and sensitive hottie of your dreams, all wrapped into one heart-throbbing package. If you haven't already fallen under the Tim Riggins spell, you're about to...

1. He's the star running back of the Dillon Panthers.

Basically every girl who has walked this earth has fantasized about having that cliche football relationship. No shame. #33 on the field, #1 in my heart.

2. He's actually really sensitive.

Tim Riggins may seem hard and dysfunctional on the outside, but he's really just a big softie. He's no JD McCoy, who grew up lavishly and extremely fortunate; Tim had a rough upbringing. He and his brother, Billy, had to work hard all by themselves just to stay above water, which is most likely what keeps him so grounded and humbled.

3. He loves kids.

Tim didn't even think twice about taking his neighbor under his wing when he moved in next door. And for some reason, there's just somethin' about cute boys holding babies that makes us girls swoon.

4. He's genuine and honest.

Sure, maybe he took advantage of his football-star status and slept with most of the rally girls, but once he fell in love with Lyla we saw his compassionate side. (You probably envied Lyla and maybe even hated her for a while because of it...I know I did.)

5. He knows how to have a good time.

It's 5 o'clock somewhere.

6. He's a family man.

Tim took the blame for his brother's crime and went to prison for it...if that's not loyalty then I don't know what is.

7. He's affectionate.

If you either hate Lyla or you want to be Lyla or a combination of the both, you are not alone.

8. He's protective.

Probably the only time you've ever wanted to be in a tornado was when you watched the episode where he shielded Julie from flying debris.

9. He's beautiful.

You're welcome for blessing you with this GIF.

May you all find your own Tim Riggins. Amen.

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They raise little girls to be insecure

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Big girls aren't quite sure

Day after day the big girl can't keep up

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Her soul feels worn

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