I crave a type of love so deep that the ocean would be jealous. I crave one of those 1950's type loves. When you are so utterly infatuated with each other that you see past any flaws or imperfections that the person might have. I want the hand holding, the kissing in the rain, that perfect, special first kiss at the exact right time, the dates and the traditional things. I want the perfect guy for me. He doesn't have to be just like me.

He can be the total opposite of me- if he's the one for me, I can see past anything. I want the silly, cute photo booth pictures, the school dances, the fun date ideas, the changing a guy for the better even if he's deemed 'bad.' I want something more than just "talking." I want something more. I want the staying up all night on the phone or with each other. I want to lay under the stars, I want to go to the movies and I want to go to the beach together.

I want to stay up all night talking about everything- not just sending pictures. I want to talk about life, get to know a person inside out. I want real, deep, meaningful conversation. I want to fall in love.

I want all the cute stuff. To show my boyfriend off, those annoyingly cute and constant 'my babyyyyy' posts. *Insert the ring and heart emoji* I want those cute dinner, lunch, or breakfast dates. I want to go shopping and ask for his opinions on the clothes I choose. I want him to visit me at work and bring me lunch and be able to talk about him with my co-workers after he leaves. I want that type of love where I'm up late at night at sleepovers, confiding in my best friends how much I love him and what exactly it is that draws me in so much.

I want that love that brings out the best in me. That guy that makes me feel like the best version of myself. A guy I can have the best time with driving down the highway with my music blasting on 1000, the wind blowing through my hair, singing the lyrics of our favorite songs to whether that song be Oasis' Wonderwall or Cardi B. I want that type of love where I'm always laughing.

I also want that love where he recognizes my independence, and my beauty. I'm not so good at commitment or responsibility- well, when it comes to relationships, that is. I want to be able to have fun and do my own thing, but know who I want to be with at the end of the day.

I want to go to concerts, the beach, festivals- I want that type of relationship where we're always doing something fun and exciting. I know it sounds pretty high maintenance- well, maybe it is. But I want someone to match my energy, desire to have fun, and excitement.

I don't really want someone just like me. I don't want the same person as me. In fact, to tell you the truth, I would kind of like someone the total opposite of me. That way, I never really get bored learning about the person. I really love learning, as you can tell. Maybe he can be into that sort of thing, too.

I'm not saying that I need that perfect love, that Disney Princess type thing. It doesn't have to be perfect- he just has to be perfect for me. It's true that I've had opportunities at 'love' or relationships, but for me, nothing has felt, well, perfect, quite yet. And I know I shouldn't be so high maintenance that I need 'perfect' at sixteen. I know that's a pretty crazy thought. After all, how many sixteen year olds do we know that grew up to marry their high school sweetheart? I know that they're rare, and far and few between.

Something inside of me just won't let myself be with anyone that I truly know isn't my soulmate. I know that's pretty heavy, and pretty dramatic, too. After all, I am a teenager. I know that every love I have is supposed to teach me a lesson-a valuable one that will contribute to who I become as I grow up. And every guy that I've ever talked to has helped teach me a new life lesson, and has shaped me into who I am today- but today, I want more. I want perfection. I simply cannot settle for less than what I want so badly and deserve.

I know that he is out there. My soulmate is out there, just like everyone's is- I just wish that he would hurry up and find me!!! And, trust me, I absolutely adore seeing all of this love around me. My favorite thing is to see couples in the halls, on the streets, everywhere- I love being surrounded by all this love, dishing it out, but sometimes I really do wish that I did have somebody special and just for me. So, if you're out there- please let me know!

Until then, I'll be waiting here, listening to love songs on repeat, keeping up with the latest celeb relationship drama (perhaps living a little vicariously through them), and most of all, watching Rom-Coms on Netflix.