Have you ever hurt someone with trying to hurt them?
So, apparently, I have a talent for hurting people unintentionally. It might be partially because guys are just stupid sometimes, and are oblivious to people's feelings. But for some reason, I have hurt plenty of people, recently, when I have good intentions. Looking back, the other person is completely in the right, and, yet again, I am bad at reading people. As you may expect, there is now a good old-fashioned story time, so strap in.
Recently, after many auditions, I landed a part as Link in Hairspray. I am very lucky to have snagged this role, due to the fact that there was extremely talented competition. I did not originally have this role, though. I originally was a chorus member, and the guy playing the role dropped; now, here I am. Along with the role, there comes a lot of romantic interest. I am now kissing two people several times. I have been intimate in shows with people before and it is always very professional. I don't really care all that much. But being the romantic lead, there is a lot of shit that comes from your guy friends in the show. So you wanna be professional about a romantic scene being performed in front of a bunch of teenage boys? Well good luck.
These guys figured out I got the part and now repeat my very corny lines to me such as: "I never looked inside myself, though on the outside I looked good". In their defense, if they didn't give me shit about it and have a sense of humor, they wouldn't be the friends I want. They made a comment to me in front of one of the girls that I had feelings for in the musical: "tell us how it goes, horn dog". Of course, being grossed out, I responded with, "I'd rather not".
At this point in the article, I can feel the women audience cringe and curse at me for being an idiot. The worst part is that I didn't know what I did. I didn't realize that when someone disgustingly tells someone that they don't want to have to talk about a kiss with a girl, the girl might get offended because it seems like that person is disgusted by the thought of kissing the girl.
Was this person immature? Yes, slightly. Do I understand their position? Most definitely. I would've said it differently, but there was too much of a cow over it.
It's over now, though. Of course this happens to me. No one else. I hate not thinking things through, but I miss that step too often. I feel as useless as the "close door" button on the elevator. But then I remind myself how many people are voting for Trump, and remember that everyone makes mistakes sometimes.
