I believe in God. I believe in prayer. I'm not super religious, nor do I go to church very often. I haven't read much of The Bible and I couldn't tell you a whole lot about it. But all of that doesn't hinder my beliefs. I didn't start my journey until I got to my current university, nor was it on my mind when I first arrived. One of my roommates introduced me into this world, which I am now very grateful for. I've always believed and haven't thought otherwise, despite having moments of doubt. I wasn't raised religious and I don't ever wish I would have gotten into it earlier. I think I arrived into my beliefs at the perfect moment in my life.
My reality is this: bad things happen, people are a**holes, but you got to keep on keepin' on. Life is wonderful and there are some truly spectacular things in this world. Life surprises us and miracles happen. I've seen them. I've always believed that everything happens for a reason and that life works out the way it needs to. I didn't understand for the longest time why life happens like that -- I wasn't aware of God's plan yet.
I'll be honest, I was kind of scared at first. I've met some people in my lifetime who give religion a bad name. I knew they weren't the majority, but that didn't make me any less scared. The people I've met so far in this journey are some of the most incredible human beings I have had encountered in my life. I've been taught lessons and read scriptures, but most importantly, I have learned to trust God with everything. Looking back on my life so far, I was made aware of how many times God played a part in it. I just didn't know it at the time.
As of today, my reality is clearer than it ever has been. I've connected to Him in prayer and have felt his presence.
I, like so many, suffer from anxiety, negative thoughts, self doubt -- you name it. Since welcoming Him into my everyday life, my mind goes to Him first and foremost. Sometimes, it's not immediate, but He always calls on me. He has given me the strength I didn't know I had, He has given me hope, and He has blessed me with a heart that sees the beauty in everyone. He has taught me to love the unlovable and to not give up on people. He has answered my prayers, and brought friends into my life that I never imagined having.
I pray throughout the day. Morning, night, when I'm walking in the grocery store, etc. It gives me an immediate calming sensation. I know He is with me and telling me that everything will be fine. I've learned to appreciate more and love myself with every fiber of my being. He continues to show me my purpose in life. I may not always do the right things and I'm certainty not always the best person. However, He forgives, and with that, I learn to forgive myself.
I'm a believer and that is how my reality has changed.
