I'm the kind of person who needs to wear at least a little bit of makeup to even feel comfortable going outside. It doesn't matter if it's a sheer layer of foundation or even just some primer and mascara, I usually feel the need to have makeup on. However, on some days I simply do not have the time or I simply do not care enough. I commute to school for only a few hours, so I don't really feel the need to do a full face of makeup since I'll just be going home after class. So on some days I choose to embrace the world with my natural face. It's not always an easy thing to do and here's a list of stages I go through when I choose not to wear makeup.
1. I look great, why was I so worried?
After washing my face my skin looks clear and feels fresh. I usually think to myself, "I'll be totally fine today."
2. Maybe just a touch of concealer?
Isabella, no, stop. The whole purpose of going without makeup was to go WITHOUT makeup. Girl, you do not have time to apply concealer because you're going to get carried away and do your whole face. Put the beauty blender down NOW!
3. Are we really doing this?
"Your skin is looking a bit flushed now and you really should consider packing a few items in your bag. You can do your makeup on the train. Who cares if people stare!" Just a few irrational things I tell myself that in no way ease my anxiety.
4. Everyone thinks I'm ugly.
I should have woken up earlier to get ready on time. How does everyone else look totally fine without makeup? Am I a hypocrite and is my perception of self-beauty distorted? Hmm...
5. Wait, I'm pretty sure no one actually cares.
It's New York City which means that if I literally don't even realize that people are performing on the train car, how can I expect people to be noticing flaws on my face? Besides, I'm pretty sure that everyone is worried about their own insecurities anyways.
6. I should do this everyday.
Wow, I actually survived another day without makeup on and the world didn't burn! I think I'm going to be just fine after all. Plus, I gave my skin a break from all of those products. Okay actually, tomorrow I think I'll go full glam. Worrying about being effortless is exhausting.
