A couple days ago I was in my therapy session and my therapist had asked how I had been feeling. For the first time in a while I responded saying, “Actually really well!” She looked at me with a surprise face since only a couple of weeks ago I was feeling awful about life in general. She asked me what I had done that made me feel so good and I sat there for a moment and I said, “honestly, Beyonce’s new album.”
Now I know i’m very late on her album “Lemonade” and the visual album, but because I’m a poor college student, I found her visual album online (probably illegally) and watched it. Afterwords, my life had changed.
Now I’ve loved Beyonce well before this album came out, I always loved what she had to say, but this one just tops the rest. If you’ve watched her visual album or listened to it (or just heard all of the news about it) you would know that her album is basically woman empowering and about a woman being cheated on and how she got through it.
No, I wasn’t cheated on BUT I was feeling low about myself and not appreciating all that I had going for me. (That week was also hard for me since my boyfriend was in Mexico having the time of his life while I was working my tail off to finish a class and work) So, I sat down one afternoon and spent a whole hour watching her visual album.
Boy, let me tell you Beyonce know’s how to pull every heart string there is even when you didn’t know it was there. I was crying, screaming “YES GIRL SLAY” and also feeling the joy and pain as well. After watching it I felt motivated to workout and go out and do things. During my workout I would play her album again reliving the moment and knowing I am good and worthy.
Before I listened to her album I was talking to my boyfriend about how I never got dressed up anymore that I just wear whatever and go to work and school not making the effort to feel good about myself. After listening to her album though, I gained a whole new perspective and appreciation for myself. I started putting on makeup because it made me feel good, I ditched the leggings and decided to put in the extra time to shave my legs every other day to wear those cute shorts I loved. I finally made the appointment to get a hair cut (that was much needed) as well as fresh highlights. I realized the only way I was going to feel good about myself was if I felt good on the inside and outside. I also, ordered a book called “You Are A Badass: How to stop doubting your greatness and start living an awesome life” All of these new things were in full swing to a better and more confident Anna.
Life is too short to dwell and hate yourself and not feel like your worthy, BECAUSE YOU ARE. After getting into a relationship, I started to not care or appreciate who was in my life. Days would fly by and I would just find myself growing less and less confident in myself. It wasn’t my boyfriends fault or anyone else’s, it was mine. Before getting into a relationship I figured once I found the right guy all my confidence issues would be gone; DEAD. WRONG. Beyonce’s album gave me a little boost of confidence to know that you will be okay no matter what obstacle life throws at you. That you can have it and all look good doing it too. The next time you feel like aren’t worthy or good enough, listen to one of Beyonce’s songs. Whether your in a relationship, rocking being single or dating its definitely worth listening or even watching the visual album. Beyonce’s creativity is more wild and powerful then one could imagine and it works (and she makes millions doing it). Just like my favorite song from her album says, “Middle fingers up, I ain’t thinking ‘bout you, Sorry I ain’t sorry” Sometimes we just gotta throw a big F-U to the world and start thinking about ourselves and know that we ALL have a little “Beyoncslay” inside of us.
