I've never been away from home for prolonged periods of time, I've never really traveled and I've always just been a home body.
Then I went to college and for the first time in my life I'm experiencing what it feels like to be homesick, and let me just tell you I don't like it. I'm constantly homesick, with many symptoms. Including but not limited to, upset stomach, uncontrollable tears, late night phone calls, and a craving for homemade bread.
I sometimes find myself sitting in my room wondering what everyone back home is doing, sometimes I even cry. I don't cry because I'm sad, I cry because I'm not used to being away from home. I'm surrounded by new people and I'm experiencing new things and it's scary. Half the time I'm not even sure what I'm doing.
I've only been here for less than two weeks and already I find myself wanting to go home, if just for that familiarity that home brings.
Don't get me wrong I love it here but you can never really replace that feeling of being home. I know that in time, Ashland will begin to feel like home but right now all I want to do is actually go back home. It's been hard adjusting to college life, I like the class schedules and being able to have a break in between them, that's one of the good things about going to college.
My professors are nice so far, and being an English Major its really important for me to have good relationships with them and so far its going good.
But even as the days go by, late at night I still find myself wanting to be back in my old bed and to see my dogs. Cuddle my cats and shop some more from home. Just to get that feeling of familiarity back. So far a cure has eluded me so instead I'm going home for labor day weekend, which I hope will help with the sick feeling but one can only dream.