Being stabbed in the back.

Getting heartbroken.

Being used.

Being mistreated.

Betrayal.

Imagine having incredibly important people in your life lie to you, to having a best friend who just continuously stabs you in the back. Being used repeatedly, and after a while, you just get fed up and your heart will be left broken.

This is my lesson learned, that I hope you can all learn from it as well.

I am 18 years old, or I guess young you could say.

Within these past 18 years, I have gone through some tough sh*t. I know that is cliché and what every 18-year-old says about themselves. For me, it is different. For me, it is the truth.

I don’t want to sit here and have you all read my dirty laundry and feel bad for me. I want you to read this and learn from my mistakes and wrong turns. I want you all to become stronger as I am trying to.

Having someone you thought the world of betray you and break your heart is something I do not wish on my worst enemy. Having that feeling you have been lied to, you didn’t mean anything to them, and you don’t understand what you did to deserve this treatment is hands down the WORST feeling in the world.

For years, I have given people who did me wrong a million chances. I take back their friendship or whatever kind of relationship we had back in a heartbeat. I never wanted to be on bad terms with anyone. I thought this was a good trait to have. I thought I was doing the best thing for me because, little did I know, letting them back into my life was just a temporary fix on my broken heart.

I gave these handfuls of people soooooo many chances that I lost count. I lost count of how many times they did me wrong. I lost count of how many times I cried over the situation. I lost count of how many times I held in all the things I wanted to say in.

I always held it in. I always made sure they were happy.

Then I realized I was not happy. I realized I was becoming more irritated and angry each day. I realized I was living in a toxic world full of toxic relationships that for some reason I still wanted to mend and put back together. I realized my heart was truly broken and it was time to start healing.

It was time to stop continuously letting a temporary fix be okay and then ripping the band-aid off once again. This was happening repeatedly. It was time to let my heart start healing.

Things started changing for me.

I started putting my feelings first. I started not caring about those toxic people and their feelings. I started to cut out those people.

This is far from over for me, honestly, it is just the beginning. I have just started to get these people out of my life, but I am already feeling so much better and I can finally let go of all that anger and toxicity that was built up inside of me.

So, hey, to all those toxic people that have continued to run in and out of my life, this is the last thing I am doing for you, but really, it’s more for me not you.

This is a final goodbye.

This is the last thing I will say about you all, and this is the last time I will waste anymore of my time on you because I truly believe that heartbreak can heal, but you must find the right time and surround yourself with the right people.