Freshman year of high school, I met the man I swore I'd marry. Six years later, the truth had horribly been revealed. He destroyed me -completely and wholly destroyed me. I gave him everything I possibly could. I loved him with my entire heart and soul, or at least I thought I loved him. In six years, I learned these five things...
I THOUGHT I KNEW WHAT TRUE LOVE WAS.
I didn't just see the beauty of your appearance, I saw the beauty of the mask you wore. I falsely believed in you. You told me time and time again that you loved me, and would then turn your back on me. I still stayed, and I still had faith in you. You played games with me, but I believed you were doing otherwise. You see, the thing is... That wasn't love. Love is pure. It's innocent. Love is not a game to constantly be played nor a word to be thrown around like that. Those feelings I had for you were all those of lust..... Being in love with the idea of love itself.... I cared for you, yes... But you destroyed me.
I TRUSTED A LIAR.
As a young heart just beginning to find her way in this world, you wasted six years of my life with a lie. You lied to me about other girls, on more than one occasion, then made me out to be the bad guy. The first three-four years of whatever we were, you assumed I was a game to be played... That I was competing for your attention with another girl. I fought her over you, and then realized between the both of us that you were the problem, not us. I made a friend because you lied to us both. After we became steady, a year passed us with flying colors. Then you decided you wanted out. You lied about that too. You came up with excuse after excuse as to why you wouldn't come see me.
I'VE STILL GOT A LOT TO LEARN ABOUT WHO I REALLY AM.
When you left, after my Nana died, you took with you who I thought I was. I thought I was a follower. No. I'm a leader. You stole my creativity. No, I gained it when you left. Although I shut down and locked everyone out, at least now I know what to watch out for. My walls are high, because i refuse to let you or anyone like you back in ever again. I am a Leo... Fierce, courageous, strong, brave, mindful, and compassionate. All the things I swore I lost when you left. No, I didn't lose myself... I'm just beginning to find myself.
I LEARNED WHO MY FRIENDS REALLY ARE.
Because of you, I got rid of everyone I was ever close to. Because you didn't like them. When you left, I found out who was actually there. Of all the people I pushed away because of you, only a handful came back. So for that, I am grateful. I have now found my three closest friends who were all my shoulder to lean on after you left. They pulled me out of a depressed slump, and they helped return a smile to my face. The smile that you crushed.
DO NOT JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER!!!!!! EVER!!!!!
Because I had this false belief of who you really were, your true colors slipped my mind. And when your true colors were exposed, I defended you and said "That's not him, he never does things like that." No. I was wrong about you. About all of you. I learned the truth behind you after you chose alcohol and parties over your depressed girlfriend who had just suffered a major loss in her family. I learned your true colors when you lied to me about not having a girlfriend and me moving in with you. I learned your true colors when you turned your back on your best friend of countless years all for a girl. (Yes, he told me about you leaving him for her.) Your true colors are that of a liar, a thief, a backstabber, and most of all... You are the definition of Snow Whites Poisonous Apple. Pretty all the way around and through until your poison takes its course.
