She puts a smile on her face to mask how truly torn apart she is inside.
Being cheated on, lied to, blamed, and attacked really messes with a girl’s mind. It changes her entire perspective on love. She should never have to wonder what the hell she did to deserve such pain and why she just wasn’t good enough anymore.
It’s not easy moving on, especially when you’ve invested over two years on the person. It all felt like a routine; talking to each other every minute of everyday, having the “I love you more” fights, and taking up each other’s body heat by sleeping beside each other at night. They were each other's best friend. Because of this, she just couldn’t get him out of her head and fight the urge to text him.
They were happy. Or at least she thought they were. But things quickly changed and so did he. Clearly it didn’t take him long at all to move on. This new girl already seemed better than she ever was. She could tell by the pictures posted all over Instagram and Facebook of them smiling together. It was like she was purposely rubbing it in her face because she had gotten what she wanted. And she envied this girl for it. How could she have stolen the love of her life? Nothing hurt more than seeing him with someone else, loving someone else.
The constant arguing became exhausting and agonizing. He wouldn’t take the time to understand her and didn’t care that she was hurting like no other. It wasn’t fair. She never wanted a break; she didn’t want to get pushed away. She didn’t ask to get yelled at and blamed for all the mistakes ever made in the relationship. All she wanted was to fix what was broken. All she wanted was him.
But he didn’t believe any of it.
It’s his fault she has her walls built higher than ever to guard her fragile heart. It’s his fault she feels lost and doesn’t recognize who she is anymore. Lastly, it’s his fault she even blames herself for the breakup.
Now she’s destroyed and forever scarred. Struggling to find ways to deal with the heartache. Only time can heal pain, but who really knows when that time will come because he truly damaged her.
