See, I am at this weird point in my life where some of my friends are getting into relationships. Then I have those who are engaged or even better, married. At first, I took this as a nudge to be in a relationship. But then I realized, I cannot just go after any guy I think is "the one."
I have had my heart broken more times than I would have ever liked in my life so far. These times made me a stronger person and also helped me realize my worth. It has also helped me see what I do not need or want in the next guy. It also showed me what a relationship should not be like.
No, this does not mean that I want a relationship right now. Like yes, it sucks seeing all these cute couple posts and not being able to take pictures with someone. It also sucks when people bring dates to parties or events and here I am remembering how single I really am. The worst part is when people keep reminding you of how single you are by asking when you are going to find that special someone. And while I wish I could spoil someone else, I will just stick to spoiling myself.
One thing I have learned is that people come into your life for a reason. That reason could be to guide you, hurt you, tear you down, to help you find yourself or better yet, to help you find "the one." Some people do more damage in our lives then they do good for us. A lot of us may think that some people come into our lives and waste our time, but there is a reason why they stepped foot into your life in the first place.
I am very guilty of saying people wasted my time as soon as something goes wrong. But then I have to remind myself that there is something better out there for me. This person is leading me in the direction of finding someone who will put up with me. I may not know what or who it is, but I will get there one day.
Until then, I am happy to live the life I am living. I am happy to be able to go home and sprawl out in my bed without having to worry about sharing space. I am happy that I do not have to stress about buying gifts for holidays for a significant other.
I am happy to have days and nights to myself. I am also happy to be here for my friends through engagements, weddings, and even having babies. Honestly, I am happy that my past relationships helped make a better me.
And lastly, I am happy to be the single friend.
