Isn't it a beautiful feeling to sit there in the comforts of your own mind pretending you're the kings and queens of the world? You're sitting in a castle with no worries, can do as you please, and everything just seems to work out always for everyone. Where you can live freely without bending to the conforms of society. But how are you supposed to act in this real world? The world where children see their parents physically harming each other, or where they don't have any. The world where adults can careless about the kids being bullied because they lost sight of what really matters or where 10-year-olds are joining gangs and doing "grown up" things because that's what they're told is okay.
I had to accept reality when it finally hit me that my parents were never getting back together, or when I watched as my Grams' health slowly deteriorated until the end. Or when I realized that dogs won't live forever. Or feeling the weight of everyone's problems being slumped onto me because I'm the only who seems to care, or where no one cared about me having no time to fix myself or my own issues going on because of theirs? their problems were more important than mine to them. And that some people could never truly care about you. No. No, it is never fun or easy when you're kicked around by the life that you are trying to run, but I guess that's all part of our journey. We learn to hit the ground running every morning to make sure that we maintain some control over this bs life.
They say it's in your destiny or that God gives you challenges that you are able to handle because you're a warrior right? So what about the 5-year-old warriors holding down the fort for their drugged out mom because dad left to the store 3 years ago and never came back. Where the mom blames the child for his father's leaving. Where they live through hellish abuse by the whacked, cracked out mom because after all, they've never known any better. Maybe they have no idea what love is because they were never that fortunate to feel it after all the beatings they have suffered through. Maybe they will somehow find some relief throughout the years but again it depends on their life.
The world is cruel and is waiting to take us out at any turn or twist in the road. So we have to accept reality, the reality that nothing goes as planned and that you'll always need a plan B or C or D. You have to be flexible in life in order to live it. You have to enjoy the smallest things in life to make it worth living. Be excited that the sun is out but be ready to handle your business when it's time. Find yourself because no one can do that for you, ultimately because everyone's too busy finding theirs to help you with yours. The only guarantee we have is that the sun will rise and the sun will set, what happens between is all up to you.
