Dear Future Husband,

I am praying for you. I'm praying for you every single day. I am praying earnestly for your relationship with Christ. I am going before the Lord asking for him to be with you today and tomorrow and all the days after that. I want you to feel the call of God on your life. You are going to be the spiritual leader of our household one day, and I am praying that you are preparing for that role.

I am praying for your friends. I pray they are leading you toward all the good that awaits you in life. Having Godly friends can be hard and I hope you have some to walk with you. I am praying for your family. I pray they are loving in all the best ways. I pray they are supporting you in your walk of faith.

I. Am. Praying. For. You.

I want you to understand something, though, I know prayer is powerful and it changes things. I know, because it's changing me. I may be praying fervently for you and those around you.

But I am praying harder for me.

I don't know you yet, or at least I don't think I do. You could be across the world or just down the street. I do, however, know me and I spend a little time each day getting to know my heart a bit better. I know that if I am going to be the wife you will surely need me to be, then I will need to pray a lot harder for myself until that day comes.

I don’t know you. I don’t know what beautiful flaws the Lord will have given you. But I know with a confidence that comes from a lifetime of experience I need a little more patience. I need a little more willingness to listen, not only to other people, but also to Jesus when He calls me.

I could use some help finding God's peace when there is seemingly none to be found. I have a natural tendency to let life dictate my mood instead of being able to have them set apart from my circumstances. Joy is something that doesn't always come naturally to me, a natural worrier. I am quick to anger when I should be slow to react. These things would cause a lot of grief for the both of us if you were here right now.

I'm not ready to find you quite yet. I know and understand that. Some days I beg God to change His mind anyway. He doesn't and for good reason. I am still very much a work in progress. I only hope you are fine with being an afterthought tacked on at the end every time I pray.

Darling, I might be praying hard for you each and every day, but I can promise you that I am praying harder for me.