Happiness.

We look for it everyday of our lives, whether it be in form of success, approval, or by gaining something new. But I wonder if we ever actually find it and will be satisfied. Because we have idea of learning if we reach our peak of happiness. No knowledge of future event that could optimistically boost our levels of that jovial feeling, or severely alter it.

I don't know that much about what makes the feeling what it is. Though I do know what makes me happy. I would say that I'm sociable, and that I find my daily dose of happiness comes from people. More specifically the interaction I receive with them. It intrigues me, I love learning of new people, their quirks, and getting passed the surface of who they are. Soon after that, I become intertwined with them as a person. I develop an affinity for their company and presence.

But sometimes things don't exactly work out how I imagine, and these new people end up out of my life. Sometimes that sucks, because they connected with you and you felt their vibe as they felt yours. They leave, and I restart the cycle of finding someone else who makes me content. But I wonder that if this happens too much does there ever come a point where I'll have learned helplessness and reached a point to where I've given up on new people believing that they're all the same.

It makes me think that's why a lot of people have issues with letting new people in their life, because after so many attempts it just doesn't feel worth the effort anymore. They allow it to affect their future in that they are reclusive and hide away who they truly are in fear of getting hurt by someone who already simply does not care. It goes without me saying that the world cares less these days. People are too caught up in themselves and the fast pace of everything, we're losing what makes us sociable creatures.

I'm comparing the two because they make sense for me. In fact the fact that they go hand in hand with each other led me to try my own little experiments. For example, finding someone who is not planted in the spotlight of attention, but are aside and off to their own solace. These people are often far more than what meets the eye, and they have details about them that you haven't had the blessing of learning yet. If they're inviting, and you have ample time, delve into them and lose yourself on the roller coaster that is their life. Let go of your own issues and what else you have. Chances are it will feel rejuvenating for the both of you.