College, in a literal sense, is a life changer for all of us. Even before high school ends we are asked where we will be going next and what will we be doing next. How can we truly know? How, at the young age of eighteen or younger, can we know?! Honestly, I don't think maturity-wise it is completely possible. Many Europeans take a gap year and explore different areas. I think for many this helps, while with others it does not. Socially it helps for many to mature and allows for exploration into different careers. But this is only one area related to our age.
Most people come to college and meet a bunch of people who, for most, will become their closest and longest lasting friends. I can’t deny that I haven’t made a lot of friendships, and some I know will last. But it is still very hard to manage time and know who to invest into. It is a dilemma and is hard to answer and it is just one of many questions.
I myself, since I have chosen to come to college, have found myself asking me more questions than actually feeling that my purpose is being fulfilled. I feel like I was half forced and half rushed into too many things. I chose too quickly to embrace the feeling of adult life. But I am not an adult, my question is: When will I ever be? Since I started college, also, I just want to quit everything that I have begun. At the same time, I want to remain so that I don’t get labeled “THE FRESHMAN, WHO DIDN’T LAST.” The decisions I have to make are going to change my life in drastic ways. One of which being: Should I even stay in school, is it really worth it? If it isn't, why I am spending thousands of dollars to get a piece of paper that says "yes, I studied this". I could leave and live a much more fulfilling life helping those in need, or those dying of many different illnesses. I have to say that many of these questions have yet to be answered and I need to pray and meditate on it.
If you are like me and have been asking yourself many questions since coming to college, get some council. Honestly, I have gotten a lot of council, not only from those peers who I can trust in but also Godly and wise older men and women. Lastly, seek the Lord's discernment on these issues. In the Bible, in Luke 12:24, Luke writes, "Consider the ravens: for they neither sow nor reap; which neither have storehouse nor barn; and God feedeth them: how much more are ye better than the fowls?"Just recently I met with a friend and she told me that maybe these questions we are asking ourselves is a way that God is bringing us closer to Himself. And as we draw close to Him he will offer us more and more discernment into what we will be doing.
We may have questions that are nagging at us and want to just give up on everything we are doing. But I just encourage you, no matter what situation you are in. Just take a moment take a deep breath and know that God is here with you by you side. He is willing to support you and give you guidance.
