I remember when we first met. I remember how excited I was to go on a date with him. I was jumping up and down, screaming like an twelve year-old girl. When he picked me up I could tell that he was shy, but a gentleman, and he was the most handsome man I had ever met. I knew right away that God had a plan for the two of us.
When he asked me to be his girlfriend, I got butterflies in my stomach and they never really went away. He made me so happy, and his smile gave me goosebumps. I could talk to him about anything, and he always had a way of making me feel better. We would talk on the phone for hours about the most random things. He was, and still is, my first true love.
Like all couples, we had lots of fights and some where probably unnecessary. We always worked through them, but I think eventually we both became unsure of what we really wanted. We where no longer the people we where at the beginning. We broke up for a week, then got back together. We tried to work through our differences, but we realized that we where just prolonging the inevitable. A few days ago, we said goodbye to each other for the last time and it was one of the hardest things I have had to do. Im scared of a future without him in it, and I don't really know where to go from here. I will miss the way he looked, and i mean really looked at me like I was the most beautiful person on the planet. I will mis the way he would try to mimic my voice, Ill miss the way he made me laugh. I wold do anything to see him again, and sometimes I wish I could undo all of the arguments and start over. I will always be thankful for what we had, and I will never regret our relationship. I will always have a place for him in my heart. He helped me get out of my comfort zone and try new things. He turned my life around, and made me want to be a better person.
I know everyone goes through this, and It sucks. I also know that God put people in our lives to challenge us. He knows that saying goodbye is hard, but its what we have to do to move forward. God put someone on this planet for each of us, and the people we meet along the way are supposed to help us find that special person. I know that someday we will find the right people, but its hard knowing that we arent right together.
