The majority of people say that they consider themselves a good writer, however, I do not always feel I can say the same about myself. During high school, my teacher told me that I was a good writer. In my opinion, a good writer is someone who can jot down ideas and begin to write almost effortlessly. Good writers use very descriptive words and rarely make grammatical errors. They have heart, soul, and deep meaning in their work. I do not consider myself a good writer because I always tend to second guess myself and my ideas. Writing can sometimes be very challenging for someone like me due to stress, emotions, or even something as simple as being in the wrong atmosphere to write. I feel as though I lack a lot of what determines a good writer. Also, I do not always know how to translate my ideas out of my head and onto a piece of paper.In high school, I was made to mostly write informative, argumentative, compare and contrast, and process papers. These were some things that I never seemed to be great at. My teacher was good with allowing us to broaden our horizons throughout our papers. Meaning we could almost discuss anything we wanted as long as it followed her structural pattern. I remember thinking “this is a lot different than middle school.”. Middle school was where I was first introduced to poetry. Something about poetry seemed to draw me in. However, I always doubted my ability to write. I remember I was given an assignment to write a poem about how we felt about the art of literature. fearful to try it out and see how well I would do, I started the assignment shortly after it was assigned. I just wanted to finish it and get it over with. A few days after handing in the assignment, my teacher pulled me aside. She asked me if I had ever written poetry before because it appeared that I knew what I was doing. I told her I had not written poetry before but enjoyed attempting to write it. Over the years I have written numerous poems but have not shared them out of fear that they might be terrible. I still write poetry but only to get my feelings out and express them. I do not like to show them all the time. Poetry has become one of my many coping methods when something goes wrong.
Writing was a huge coping method in my life when my grandfather passed away. It allowed me to sit down and express my feelings. When people ask me what I write about when I go through difficult times, I usually do not tell them. It has always be difficult to express chow I feel completely, but I try my best to express some of them so they do not stay bottled in.
One might ask if there has been a reason why I feel like I am not a good writer, and my best response would be that my confidence is low. I have only ever had one bad writing experience, and at the time it seemed like it would only get worse the more I wrote. Since I am insecure about myself, there were some conditions that made writing an obstacle.
My strengths and weaknesses as a writer varies. However, If I continue to notice my weaknesses and keep improving them, I believe I have the potential to become a good writer. Improving all my weaknesses as a writer is a desire of mine so that I can become a better and stop second guessing myself. I have a passion for writing so I will not allow my weaknesses to stop me from at least trying to improve my skills as a writer.
