I’m sorry this letter has been so prolonged. I owed you this note quite a few months ago, heck, probably even years ago, but am just now approaching it. To be honest, I’m not even sure that I will be able to thank you for all that you’ve done for me. I would like to start by saying that I know I’ve strayed a little bit from you at times, and that I tend to let myself get distracted by worldly matters, but I want you to know that you’ve always been my Savior. It is hard for me to understand why you would love me, want me, care for me, protect me, be proud of me, and continue to never give up on me even when I have failed you so many times. There was even a point in my life when I let my faith dwindle and yet you did not leave me. You saved my life and continue to be the reason I live.
Not only have you continued to love me even in my sins and flaws, but you also have loved me even in my darkest moments. Last year when I went through the hardest time in my life, I questioned you as many of us tend to do. I did not think you were punishing me or that it was you putting me through so much pain, but I did question why you allowed me to suffer for so long. Each day my faith was fading and I remember wondering why, when I had prayed to you and begged you to stop my pain, you allowed me to continue in agony. I did not understand or believe in your plan for me at the time, but once I came out on the other side, I understood what you had done.
I do not believe that you planned for my pain. What I do believe is that you got me through it. Day after day you gave me little beacons of hope and surrounded me with people who love and support me. Although times were tough, you made me tougher.
God, I can never thank you enough for staying by my side no matter what, even when I doubted you. I love you.
Your Child Always,
"I loved you at your darkest." -Romans 5:8