Does life ever hit you so hard that the only thing you can do is laugh? Everything in life comes so fast. Days speed by and when you think back at the last three months all you can remember is how many dumb moments you've had and you've had no other choice than to laugh at yourself.
Your mistakes blend together and the only way you can organize your thoughts is going through all the pictures your friends have documented.
It's funny every once in a while but eventually, the laugh turns into a force of habit. You feel so stressed out about everything that you just opt into doing nothing to avoid all the responsibilities life throws at you.
I've come to find that who I used to be has become lost in who I am now and everything I do now is about pleasing other people around me. I find myself agreeing to do too many things at one time out of fear of disappointing other people, that I never have time to sit to myself.
You've turned into the person that does not think about what happens next, you just live life day by day and hope for the best.
You leave in the mornings with no sense of what that day is going to hold. You have turned into the person it is easy to make fun of and you learn to take it and roll with the everyday punches because you'd rather feel loved and associated with laughter than someone who can't take any jokes.
You feel pressured to uphold the clueless nature and please the people that enjoy your airhead presence but you know there is more to you than a stupid comment and a bad joke. You feel like you are getting lost in the stereotype you have formed for yourself and start believing the comments your friends make about you.
I promise, you are more than a bad joke, you have so much more to offer and you are not other people's words.
You are you, even if you don't know who that is yet. There is always time to change, there is always time to be who you want to be. You do not have to impress anyone, you can be whoever you want to be at any time you decide to be that person. You are in control of your own life and no one has any say in the decisions you make. It's never too late. Take a deep breath, be yourself, don't lose yourself, love yourself.