To the Girl Who Broke a Friendship
After all we'd been through and done together, I considered you to be one of my best friends. When you decided you didn't trust your boyfriend around me because you thought I'd try something with him, and you chose him over me, you broke all of the trust and respect I had for you. I would never have done something to ruin your relationship with him, and it hurt me that you would think so. For a while after that, we weren't on the best of terms. In all honesty, I couldn't really even stand the sight of you, as petty as that sounds. I felt angry and betrayed, but most of all, I was hurt.
The past is in the past.
Yes, you hurt me. Yes, you waited a very long time to apologize. But I do forgive you. He was your first love, and I can understand why you got caught up in that. However, I don't understand why you would think of me as a threat. To my knowledge, I'd never done anything to you to prove that I am the kind of person to get in the way of a relationship; least of all my best friend's. I doubt that I will ever understand why you'd choose to lose a friendship over a misunderstanding, but that's okay. It's over, and I forgive you.
I'm sorry too.
I'm not going to lie and say I handled things in the most mature manner either, so for that I am sorry. I should never have exploded on you. I should have talked to you about your mistrust in me way before things got out of hand, and I should have reassured you that I would never hurt you. But I didn't, and that's my burden to carry. Sometimes I wonder if I had addressed the situation earlier instead of shying away from the conflict that we could have avoided the fight and would still be friends to this day.
Though I forgive you, I won't forget.
Though now we can talk civilly, and we've exchanged apologies, I will not forget what happened. I don't think our friendship can ever get back to the way it was before, and that to me is really sad. You've lost my trust, and it would take a lot for you to gain even a little of it back. I honestly wish we could return to the silly and spontaneous friendship we shared before, but I just don't think I could do it without being scared you'd toss it aside again.
I never wanted to steal your boyfriend.
I promise. I really didn't want to. I'm sorry if I've ever done anything to make you think I would try, but I would never have done that to you. All of us had been friends long before you started dating, so if I wanted to be with him I would have tried previously. I think that's what hurts me most about the situation, that you thought so lowly of me. So I just want to tell you now that, despite your accusations, I didn't want to come between you and him.
I wish you the best.
I wish you no ill will, and I want you to know that I will be here if you ever need anyone. What's done is done, there's no use rehashing it any more than it already has been. I hope one day we can be friends again, even if we're not as close as we once were. Good luck in the future; I know you'll succeed in anything you put your mind to.
