My ex and I tried getting back together one time and unfortunately it did not work.

He started texting me again and then all of sudden we were back together just like that. I was overwhelmed with emotions. I had missed him so much and it felt good just to have him back in my life again. All I could think about were the good times we had together and I thought that's all that mattered but, once again I was wrong.

After the initial getting back together it took me only a few days to realize I had made a mistake. I gave in and let my guard down. I let the boy who broke my heart back into my life. The one who cheated on me, the one who broke up with me, the one who didn't realize he was letting go of the best thing that had ever happened to him.

I realized he hadn't changed. Not only that I realized we each wanted different things in life. I wanted to get an education and get a good job in the future and that is not what he wanted. He wanted to move across the United States when I graduated and I couldn't keep the promise that I would go with him. Not only this but we argued a lot, over the simplest little things. Before we broke up we NEVER used to argue. That was new to me I didn't get why we would argue now.

Even though we were broken up for only two months, in those two months, I changed so much. I got used to being by myself. I could do what I wanted, when I wanted. No I'm not saying that when we were together that I couldn't do what I wanted just, I didn't have to worry about anyone else's opinion. I grew up. I became a better and stronger individual. I started having more fun and living life to the fullest.

I realized I deserved BETTER so this time I broke it off.

I deserve someone who is going to love me even when things get rough. Someone who won't leave and then try to come back. Someone who has the same morals as I do. I deserve someone who actually wants to work hard and make something of themselves one day.

I am not going to lie some days I regret breaking it off with him because, sometimes I feel as though we could've made it work. I think of all the great times we had together and then I think to myself why in the hell would you not want those times back? Getting back together was a mistake, I was doing so great without him and then after we broke up the 2nd time I had to go through the heartbreak all over again.

I know it was the right choice breaking up with him deep down but, its still hard not to miss him.