Which way do you expect this article to go? Do you want it to be about how I don't know what I want from a romantic relationship? Or do you want it to be about how I don't know what I want out of life? Well, I don't really know which way I want to go with it either because I'm the girl who just does not know what the heck she wants. With that being said, lets take it in a few different directions.
Relationships
I know that I want trust and dependability, but I'm also way too independent to be too dependent on another human. I want someone that will treat me as an equal, but also who will tell me when I'm being an immature 20 year old. I haven't had a boyfriend in a while and people mistake this for me being too picky or too much of a free-spirit. I'm sorry but what does free-spirit even mean? Dictionary.com tells me that it's "a person with a highly individual or unique attitude, lifestyle, or imagination; nonconformist." Hell yeah I'm a free spirit.
I want a boyfriend, but when the right one comes along. I do not have time for someone who will get mad about who my best friends are one Snapchat, or if I double-tapped some dudes picture. Let me just reiterate that I know I want trust, and this is the part about dating in our social-media crazed culture that ruins trust.
Career
I'm about to be a senior in college, I'm supposed to know what I want to do when I graduate right? I want to pay those freakin' student loans that will ruin my credit if I don't. I have a dream job, but I don't know how to get there and it's the scariest thing. But hey, we only have one life to live so I might as well make the most of it and maybe just blow off a career and travel the world... You with me?
I don't want a 9-5 job where I sit behind a desk and count down the days until my next vacation because I'm that bored. I want a job that gives me purpose in life and helps me achieve and reach my goals. But I also want to be an Instagram model and hang on the beach all day getting paid to post pictures. Yup, still not so sure about the whole real world thing.
Well-being
I want to be healthy and have a bikini body. The kind where you have a body and you put a bikini on! Or the kind where I'm slim thick and people make songs about me. I want to give to people who don't have what I have, but I'm a college student who lives off of $200 at the end of every month. I think I want to be happy on the inside, you know not just faking a smile. But I also don't always know what I want which usually causes some kind of problem in one department or another.
As a conclusion because I think I want to be done this article, which I might change my mind about, it's okay to not know what you want. If you have any doubt in your mind about something and it makes you uncomfortable, then let it go. There's a reason why we have differences between our needs and our wants. We NEED water, food, and shelter. We also want a lot of food, but it still falls under a necessity. We want all kinds of things that's how the world goes round and how people make money. I'm sure you wanted a lot more satisfaction out of this article because you thought it was going to be super deep and meaningful. But right now, I want you to laugh even if it's just in your head because not everything has to be meaningful. Just like you don't have to know exactly what you want at every moment; coast through life for yourself and you'll eventually figure out what you truly want.
