Hey you,
I know things without me haven’t been easy, and trust me I feel it too. You’d think that watching you from up here would make this easier, but all I do is miss you. I know that you’re upset with me, for ending things the way I did; I wish I could tell you how sorry I am and how much I regret leaving you so soon.
For weeks I heard you crying and blaming yourself, and I’m here to tell you that this is NOT your fault. You were there for me whenever I needed your love and your smile brought light back into my life more than you’ll ever know. You were the reason I stuck around as long as I did, because I didn’t want to go a day without that smile. Your smile was the last thing I saw before it all went dark and I wouldn’t have wanted to see anything else.
I know my act was selfish and that I have hurt you; you, the most selfless person I have ever been so lucky to know. Hurting you was never what I had intended, but I knew in the back of my mind that that would be a consequence of my action. My reasoning behind this might seem strange, and you may never understand, but please listen to what I have to say. I left you because I realized that you needed me more than what I could do for you on earth. You needed a guardian angel more than anything, someone to always keep you safe and watch over you. Someone you could talk to about anything at anytime, even inside your own head. You needed someone to love you endlessly up here, someone to be waiting for you to give you your wings when we finally meet again.
I am always here; walking beside you and holding your hand when things get hard. Holding up the weight of the world before it’s able to come crashing down on you. I’m here laughing at all your stupid jokes; though you can not hear me. I listen to every prayer and every desperate cry you send for me to give you a sign that I’m okay. Just know that every gust of wind that blows through your hair is me giving you a loving embrace, enveloping you in the best way that I can. I’m there in every ray of sunlight that touches your face, letting you know that things will get better and I am always here. Please don’t stop talking to me, even if you think I’m not listening, I am. There isn’t a moment in the day that I am not watching over you. When things seem to be going wrong, just trust that I will only let you face challenges I know you can overcome.
I love you more than you will ever know. I’m sorry that I left you so soon, but I never really left you at all. Please hold me in your heart until we meet again, for I will be waiting for you with open arms.
Love,
Your Guardian Angel
