In my life, I have met a lot of people: good, bad and the ugly(personality wise). I have also created plenty of friendships along the way. But it all suddenly changed once I started college/university away from the friends that held me down since I was a child. I believe that after high school, the feeling that came upon me caused a point that I needed to rediscover "who I truly was". I basically gained most of my personality from the friendships that I had and so I began to feel lost in a sense. I felt like a stranger who previously lived in a foreign land and traveled into the unknown world of adulthood.
After high school, I felt sort of like an injured bird who was left abandoned into the wilderness to fend for herself and no longer guarded. In order to finally find my inner self without anyone, I needed to change my former self into who I wanted to be. I started to spend time alone, now you would think that it wouldn't be the best idea. But in my moments alone, I analyzed my faults, backslides and overall my obstacles that I am about to go through. I started to write post-its of what I wanted to accomplish academically, personally and financially. However before I could even focus on those goals, I needed to build my faith in the One I depended on in times of peace and hardships. I urged to create a rebirth of the important relationship with my Maker, then work on my inner self and finally my life goals.
As I started to emerge successfully past the problems that were causing hindrances, I started to see growth in my life. When I look back to that particular time, I thought that I needed people to be comfortable but I realized that I need to be comfortable in my own skin (personally) or I would never be happy with or without anyone. I recognized that my faith was the only way that I always was overjoyed in life. A majority of people who really know me, tend to ask why am I always happy? The answer is that He is the reason that I am alive today. I am just thankful that I am healthy, my family is doing well, my loved ones and friends are doing well also. I am just full of gratitude and it cannot be explained. There are moments where I am not as overjoyed, but I know that I also have someone who I consider one of my best friends and I am extremely thankful for his advice. My best friend has not only impacted me to live positively but we keep each other on "our toes" and he reminds me that no matter your situation, prayer is the key to moving ahead in life. Based on our friendship, I have known him for almost three years and I realized that quantity is more essential than quantity in friendships. Therefore, I started to be more careful over my friendships that I choose. They say that " show me your friend, and I will show you, your character". You define it in your words and apply it in your life.
