Life likes to teach you the hard lessons when you least expect them. I guess I should've realized that these things come unexpectedly, but it still hurts. After an emotional rollercoaster, I realized how thankful I am to have my friends by my side that I can count on one hand. These are the most important friends.
Sometimes good people hurt you and you don't really know why. Maybe their goals are different. Maybe the things they want out of life are different. Maybe the story they are writing for their lives is different. I may never know the reason and I just have to be okay with that. I have to accept the uncertainty and jump head first into unknown waters, which is something I hate doing and have a hard time with. Regardless of where the uncertainty may take me or how I feel about it, it's happening anyway so I have to embrace it.
Although I spent the greater part of the past few weeks angry and disappointed, I am glad I came out a better person who realized that this is one of the less important things life is going to throw at me. I learned who I could count on forever and who I can call at 2 in the morning with all my problems. I learned that things will probably never work out perfectly or the way I want them too because that's just the way the world works. No matter how I feel about these situations, the world does not stop turning for me to get a hold of myself. So instead you have to pick yourself back up and raise your head high to overcome all those crazy obstacles.
It doesn't matter how many times you fall down or how many times you get pushed aside. It only matters how fast and strongly you rise back up again better than ever. The truth is some people are not worth your time and energy. As one wise friend told me, "Don't set yourself on fire to keep others warm." I couldn't have said it better myself as I realized some people just won't cross oceans for you because they would rather cross them for others. That is totally acceptable, it is just a difficult thing to understand and be okay with.
I learned that sometimes you just have to take the high road and raise your chin up to be better. Being the better person isn't always the easiest choice, nor the most fun. However, being the better person makes you the happier one that conquers the entire world.
