I wish I could say I miss everything about you and know one day we can be close again, but I know I don't mean all those words.

I go through old pictures and I remember all the laughter we shared and the secrets we told and I miss that, but then I remember how it hurt when I finally realized we grew apart from each other. I won't take the blame and you won't take the blame for it because in the end it was probably both of us who messed up.

I told you everything from the struggles I was facing to the joy I was feeling. You told me the fights you had with your parents and the boys you wanted to kiss. I kept those secrets, I hope you have too. I see pictures of you and sometimes wish I was the person laughing next to you. I see your family and remember how I used to be considered part of that family. I remember sitting with you talking about how we were gonna be each others maid of honors and how we were gonna double date to prom and live next door to each other when we got married. What happened to us? I ask myself that a lot when I start thinking about you. I think we grew apart because our lives became so different. You found new hobbies, I found new dreams. You found new friends and I did too. It wasn't like in the movies where friends grow apart and then something happens that brings them together. We grew apart and that was that. No big fight, no tears, nothing. We went from going everywhere together to barely seeing each other and awkwardly smiling. I want you to know that I do miss you, but I know that us growing apart has made us who we are today.

I also want you to know that I see your potential and your ability to love people like never before. I see how you are blossoming and growing and becoming this amazing person. I want that for you. I want you to have an amazing life with an amazing group of friends right beside you. I want you to succeed and make something of yourself. I see you and I see how you can change the world. I hope you do. It'll be amazing when you do.

One last thing, I love you still. I still am here for you. I am still just a phone call away. I may not know who or what you're talking about, but I will still listen and be there for you. I can't say that I miss you because at this point in life I don't know who you really are anymore, but what I can say that I miss is the friendship that we once had. It wasn't perfect, but it was you and me. It was our sleepless sleep overs, our endless shopping trips and random photo shoots. It was us. I miss that.

So, I hope you read this and remember all those fun times and know that just because we grew apart doesn't mean we have to stay that way.