As you get older, your group of friends tends to get smaller because you begin to realize who is in your life for the long haul and who is just there when it's convenient for them. Every now and then, someone will come into your life and you think that they're one of the good ones, one of the ones who will stick by you forever, but it doesn't always work out that way. Sometimes a friend comes into your life and ends up walking away from you when you need them the most. A friend can break your heart and that hurts more than anything.
A few months ago, we stopped speaking to each other. It was not what I wanted at all, but that didn't seem to matter to you. After six years of being best friends, we were done. We were on speaking terms one day and the next: nothing. I pleaded with you, well, more your inbox since you just stopped answering my texts altogether, to continue being my friend. I could not fathom the idea of my life without you in it, but like I said — that didn't seem to matter to you.
You just blocked me out and acted like you forgot about me, even after everything we went through together and everything we have done for each other. The thing is, though, it's hard to just forget someone that you were best friends with for so long. Believe me, during these past few months I have tried and failed miserably. I can't seem to forget your favorite kind of ice cream or your favorite TV show. I can't scroll through Twitter without wanting to tag you in a dog video that I know you would find hilarious. I'm sitting here, stuck with all these memories of the time that we spent together, desperately wishing that I could forget them all, but I can't. You were a huge part of my life and that is something that will never change.
Even though we did not end our friendship on good terms, I owe you so much and will forever be grateful for our friendship. Even though they suck to think about sometimes, I am grateful for all the memories that we have made together. Without you, I would not be the person that I am today. I will never be able to thank you enough for everything that you did for me while we were best friends. You helped me through countless fights with everyone in my life. You were always there for me when I needed you the most. I mean, you put up with me on my best and worst days, and we both know that my bad days were pretty rough. You are basically the reason that I survived high school, especially senior year. If we didn't have every class together this past year, I don't know how I would have made it to graduation. I'm not going to lie and say that I've been able to replace you, or that I'm even okay without you as my best friend. The truth is, I totally miss having you in my life and I probably will for a while, but I think that's okay. You were my go-to person for a really long time, so coming to terms with the fact that I can't talk to you about every little thing anymore was definitely tough, but I'm working on it and I'll get there eventually.
Honestly, I don't even know if you'll see this letter, but if you do, I truly hope that you are doing well. I know that you're already doing great things at college and are on a path to becoming successful. Your future is so bright and holds amazing things for you. Thank you again for supporting me for so long and for the awesome friendship that you gave me during the past six years. Not right now, but maybe one day, we'll be friends again. I wish you the best.
