Sometimes, the best things you have in life end terribly. Trust, happiness and good communication are three of the major components in a good relationship. When you don't have one of those three, the relationship will fall to the ground. Something I have also learned is I don't realize what I do wrong, or how I could have done something differently. I don't expect you to come back after reading this, but understand that I know what I did wrong, and I'm working on myself.
I'm sorry for...
Being a brat.
Every day in the morning I'm very cranky and don't want to be touched, but you dealt with it and left me alone. For the times you let me throw my little fits because I couldn't figure out what I wanted to eat that night. Or every time I would stick my forehead by your mouth so you would kiss it no matter where we were at. For the days that I would yell at you for stupid things. I'm sorry for being a brat most of the time.
Not being able to make a decision.
No matter if it was over dinner, or what dress to wear out, it always took me forever. You were so patient and kind about having to wait for me to decide. Remember that one night I had a mental breakdown because I couldn't decide on Domino's or Walmart dollar pizza, you just sat there and told me you would eat whatever I wanted. I never said thank you for being so patient with me.
Rarely saying thank you.
You did so much for me, and looking back, I don't know if I said thank you as much as I should have. Between running to my car to grab something I left or supporting me in all my decisions, I should have said thank you more. You were willing to do everything for me, and I let you, when I shouldn't have. Even though it's too late, I want to say thank you for everything you did.
Most of all I'm sorry for...
Ruining us.
It was a stupid little mistake I made that had you leave. Of course, I didn't cheat on you, or doing anything to that nature, but what I did was wrong and I should have trusted you. Technology is an amazing thing, sometimes, but this time it ruined us. I could sit here and say sorry a million times, but it doesn't change what I did, or why you're upset. I miss you dearly, and thinking about you kills me little by little.
You will forever be in my heart, whether we end up getting married or never speaking again. I love you to the bottom of heart, and I hope one day you find exactly what you want. Even though I want you to love me back, I know that won't happen, so good luck out there. I'll see you around.
Xoxo.
