There are people who never stop running around, making plans, making back up plans... there are people who just never stop. Not necessarily because they love everything that they're doing or because they like being busy, but because of a fear of doing nothing. They never stop to breathe to consider who they are, or discover their passions, and may find themselves living in their back up plans, settling for second best, and even following paths that aren't meant for them.
These people may find themselves at a crossroad. They may turn to the internet in search of advice as they try to make sense of what to do next, but the articles all point in different directions.
"Try new things!"
"Listen to your instincts!"
"Believe in yourself!"
"Honor your truth!"
Yeah, sure. All of that sounds great, and even inspiring, but how do you actually do all of that? What if your instincts don't tell you anything? What if you don't know how to find your truth? With questions like these, more vulnerable ones begin to echo in your mind: How could I go this long without knowing myself? Am I weak? Is it this difficult for everyone?
As you can probably tell... I am at a crossroad. After spending weeks considering my options, sitting in parks reflecting, and talking in circles about what if's, I have come to the conclusion that uncertainty is the only certainty. Maybe the first step of living and finding your truth is realizing that you don't yet have one. Maybe visiting new things, then visiting old things, and revisiting them constantly is a step toward finding your passions. In retrospect, admitting that you may be weak is a strength in itself. It's possible that you knew yourself but as a human you're continuously evolving and this new you is a stranger waiting for a chance to become a friend. Maybe instead of panicking about the unforeseeable future, just allow yourself to breathe and relax, and finally give yourself a break.
Like I said, and will continue to say: I am at a crossroad. That is my current truth. I have always had possible story lines written out to prepare for what may come next, but this is a new chapter and I think it's time to free write and allow the book to just write itself.
After a life of overthinking and making plans and worrying about what may or may not happen... standing at this crossroad isn't that bad. The view can actually be pretty nice if you allow yourself to take the time to breathe and take it all in.
Remember, your path emerges as you walk it and it's okay to take a moment to pause before continuing on.
