I'm finally Over You and it feels so good

I'm finally Over You and it feels so good

I thought that you would be in my life forever, but now that I know you're actually gone, I can finally move on.

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I never thought that I would see the day that I would get over you, but here it is. I saw you with her and you looked happy, the type of happy that I always wanted you to be even if it wasn't going to be with me. Today was the day that I finally stopped.

I stopped searching your name on Twitter to see what you were posting. I stopped looking through girls' likes to search for your name. I stopped looking for your name when I check who watched my Snapchat stories. I stopped wishing you would finally call or text me to start things over again. I stopped wondering what you were doing all day, every day. I stopped worrying if you were doing okay or simply how your day was. I stopped waiting for you to realize what you lost. I thought it all would never stop, until everything that had to do with you finally did, and that did it: finally all stopped. I felt whole again, even without you. I am finally happy without you.

You were one of those people that I thought I would need forever, I searched for you in every person I talked to and dated, but truly, there was only you. I realized that I would never find you again unless you came back into my life, which I knew would never happen. The truth is, I'm not good at letting go and moving on, you were my knight in shining armor, my best friend. I wanted you to be there forever, but obviously there were other plans for me and I am so glad.

I thought that when you started talking to me again that next summer we could start over and become something better, but you had other plans. Your kind words and kind actions made me feel like we were back to our old selves. Looking back on that now, you didn't have any future plans with me, and we had nothing together. I remember being so hurt, sad, angry and every single emotion you could possibly feel. I thought I accepted that you were gone a long time ago, but today I actually did.

I'm going to stop looking for you in every person I talk to. I'm going to put myself out there again like I've never been hurt before. You made me hold myself back because I was waiting to give you that type of attention, not someone else. It isn't fair to the people I have hurt, just because of you. I first needed to stop being so angry at you, angry for the way you treated me, angry for how things ended, and angry that I never got closure. But, most people don't get closure and I needed to realize that things won't always go my way. I had to stop being angry at myself, I didn't do anything and at that point. I thought I ruined everything and that I did this to us; it was actually you that did this to us.

You have no control over my life anymore.

I am finally doing things for myself.

I am finally over you and actually moving on.

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8 Thank Yous Your College Roomie Deserves To Hear In Person, Before Break

Sometimes we get caught up in college that we forget to thank our roommates for being so awesome.
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Sometimes we get caught up in college and all of the assignments that we have to do that we forget to thank our roommates for being so awesome.

Here's just a few reasons why you need to thank your roommate.

1. For not getting mad when you snooze your alarm five times in the morning.

Sometimes there is little will to get up for class.

2. For pretending that you didn't wake them up as you struggled to get ready for your 8 a.m. class.

*Drops everything possible*

3. For letting you rant about your classes.

"First of all, listen to what happened in class today."

4. For listening to your crazy stories and offering you advice when you need it.

Sometimes we all need someone to tell us that we are being a little crazy.

5. For letting you borrow their clothes when you have nothing to wear or steal snacks when you fail to go to the grocery store that day.

"Can I borrow that shirt? How about those shoes?"

6. For supporting you when sometimes the struggles of college become overwhelming.

When you have four exams, five papers, three projects and you just need someone to tell you that it's all going to work out.

7. For being the person that you get to share your good news to.

*Finds out class was cancelled*

8. Most of all, for being the greatest friend that you could ask for.

There will always be ups and downs, but they are always someone that you know you can rely on.

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(12/17) If You Pressure Your Friends Into Drinking, You’re The Worst Kind Of Person

No means no, no questions asked.

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In today's world, people make drinking and smoking seem like another everyday task that's as common as brushing your teeth or drinking water. It's not.

I know a ton of people who don't drink or smoke. I've written time and time again how I don't think parties are fun. Believe it or not, I have a ton of friends who don't partake in any kind of substances.

We aren't some rare being that has to be watched from afar and is only talked about in storybooks. We exist, and we're real people with real feelings and real reasons for not participating in drinking and smoking culture.

For me, it's just never been fun. I've never had a good experience with it and I've decided it's something that's not for me.

I've seen a lot of really great people go downhill hard and fast after getting involved with drinking or drugs. It's scary, and I don't want to end up in that position myself.

When I tell you these things, you shouldn't act like I just told you I've committed murder. If that changes your opinion on me, that's your problem. I don't judge you for partying and going out, you definitely shouldn't judge me.

If you have a friend who doesn't drink or smoke, don't invite them out just because they'll make a good DD. If they don't offer, chances are they probably don't want to.

Not only that, but why would I want to hang out with people who only like me based on the fact that I'm always going to be a ride home? I want you to get home safely, and if you call me every once and a while I'd rather you be safe than putting yourself and everyone around you in danger.

However, if you find yourself expecting that of me all the time or volunteering me when I'm not even around, please don't talk to me. No offense, but I have better things to do. I'll order you an Uber from my bed, just make sure you pay me back later.

If we're hanging out and you pressure me to drink or smoke when I've explicitly told you "no," I will leave. Pressuring anyone to do anything that they don't want to do makes you a bad person and it's wrong.

"No" means no. No questions asked.

I can easily find other people to hang out with that enjoy doing normal people things and hanging out when we aren't going absolutely insane. No one's that special that I'll let them put me in that situation.

If you were really my "friend," you'd understand the first time.

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