I'm finally Over You and it feels so good

I'm finally Over You and it feels so good

I thought that you would be in my life forever, but now that I know you're actually gone, I can finally move on.

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I never thought that I would see the day that I would get over you, but here it is. I saw you with her and you looked happy, the type of happy that I always wanted you to be even if it wasn't going to be with me. Today was the day that I finally stopped.

I stopped searching your name on Twitter to see what you were posting. I stopped looking through girls' likes to search for your name. I stopped looking for your name when I check who watched my Snapchat stories. I stopped wishing you would finally call or text me to start things over again. I stopped wondering what you were doing all day, every day. I stopped worrying if you were doing okay or simply how your day was. I stopped waiting for you to realize what you lost. I thought it all would never stop, until everything that had to do with you finally did, and that did it: finally all stopped. I felt whole again, even without you. I am finally happy without you.

You were one of those people that I thought I would need forever, I searched for you in every person I talked to and dated, but truly, there was only you. I realized that I would never find you again unless you came back into my life, which I knew would never happen. The truth is, I'm not good at letting go and moving on, you were my knight in shining armor, my best friend. I wanted you to be there forever, but obviously there were other plans for me and I am so glad.

I thought that when you started talking to me again that next summer we could start over and become something better, but you had other plans. Your kind words and kind actions made me feel like we were back to our old selves. Looking back on that now, you didn't have any future plans with me, and we had nothing together. I remember being so hurt, sad, angry and every single emotion you could possibly feel. I thought I accepted that you were gone a long time ago, but today I actually did.

I'm going to stop looking for you in every person I talk to. I'm going to put myself out there again like I've never been hurt before. You made me hold myself back because I was waiting to give you that type of attention, not someone else. It isn't fair to the people I have hurt, just because of you. I first needed to stop being so angry at you, angry for the way you treated me, angry for how things ended, and angry that I never got closure. But, most people don't get closure and I needed to realize that things won't always go my way. I had to stop being angry at myself, I didn't do anything and at that point. I thought I ruined everything and that I did this to us; it was actually you that did this to us.

You have no control over my life anymore.

I am finally doing things for myself.

I am finally over you and actually moving on.

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15 Texts You Send To The Best Friend You're A Little TOO Close With

5. "Do we like this?"
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There are friends, there are best friends, and then there are the people you consider closer than anyone in the world.

Whether they live near or far, here are 15 texts you know you'll be sending them:

1. "Do you want to sleep in my bed?"

Who needs a guest room when you have a twin bed and an extra blanket?

2. "If we're both single in 20 years we're getting a cat and living together."

Chances are, you'll both and up crazy cat ladies, anyway.

3. "Did you take your meds this morning?"

Each other's health is the most important thing to both of you and chances are, you're more on top of it than them.

4. "Are you done being dramatic or do I need to wait another hour?"

You both either thrive on drama or hate it - but either way, you're going to be dramatic and your other half is going to have to put up with it.

5. "Do we like this?"

Decisions are never made without each other.

6. "I love your dog more than you."

You also miss their dog more than them.

7. "Go like my Instagram post."

This text comes right after asking them which selfie out of a thousand to post.

8. "Don't you dare text him. You already texted him didn't you?"

Unless you're there to take their phone away, you'll text this (or get this text) on the regular.

9. "I took your shirt."

Your closet is their closet and vice versa.

10. "Where were you, you didn't text me for 3 minutes."

It's rare to go even ONE minute without texting.

11. "Does this look weird?"

You never leave the house without consulting each other.

12. "I'm at your house are you coming home or not?"

Your house is their house and vice versa (just like their wardrobe).

13. "I hate him so you hate him too."

You share all the same enemies.

14. "You'll never guess who I just saw..."

You know everything about each other's other friends (or ex-friends) - and the gossip that goes with them.

15. "You're okay I guess."

Translated to: "I'm so glad you're my best friend and I love you more than anything."

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I ditched My Former Situation-ship and here's Why You Should As well

Actions don't always speak louder than words.

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It is not only common to hear how many people have been friendzoned, but it is even sadder that so many have stayed waiting for such a stagnant thing to become more.

Situationships are becoming more common nowadays, especially among young adults. For those who don't know what that is, basically is having a one-sided treatment similar to that of an amorous relationship but without the title.

I've been in a situation-ship before when I was in high school and let me tell you it was my best and worst teacher. Seeing other people where I was at one point, makes me want to shake them (okay not literally) but knock some sense into them.

If you're currently in a situation-ship, let me tell you that it is time to let go. Whether you have known them forever or not, anyone who does not value you as a person doesn't care for your feelings or time.

Clearly, you are wasting your time and energy with someone who is not reciprocating the same feelings back.

The one who is meant to be with you will not make you question where you stand. They will let you know how much they adore you and how much you mean to them.

They will show you off to the world, kiss you like they mean it, and will be straightforward.

The worst thing I had to learn when I was infatuated with someone was that they told me they didn't know what they wanted yet at the same time demonstrated affection.

And I really did take that saying "actions speak louder than words" too literally. Can you blame me?

Whoever wants to be with you will make every effort to be with you no matter what. The idea of somebody leaving you wanting more and not making it official can really break you emotionally.

But I tell you, it's time to ditch your situation-ship. Honestly, sometimes there are individuals out there who can't stand the idea of being with someone who is just more than them.

I'm not saying there are people who are better than others, but sometimes we are the ones who have our sh*t together while they don't and to them, that is intimidating.

Or maybe we don't want to give away certain things that come with relationships. Um, like sex.

The best things come when we least expect them. Learn to realize what it is that you deserve because obviously, your emotions aren't toys for some random person to be playing with them.

You are worthy of someone who sets your heart on fire, not someone who puts out your flame. Don't let anyone make you believe that love isn't a good feeling, it is and more.

There are billions of people out there, don't let one ruin your chance of finding your true love.

Part of loving yourself is letting go of those who use you for their benefit.

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