My grandmother was recently diagnosed with stage 2 breast cancer. She's getting older, no longer at her prime. She's not physically the strongest and she has 5 children and 7+ grandchildren. With having this much family, I can't imagine how difficult this must be for her. Physically and emotionally.

Not only is it very hard for her, but also for my grandfather and every member of our family.

I think very highly of my grandmother. And now, as she goes through this, I have realized that I appreciate things much more than I ever have. I appreciate things that I never would've thought twice about until this situation came up. No one ever thought we would have to be worried about someone becoming sick like this. Especially with cancer.

As many of you know, cancer is practically a losing battle. You can do everything to try and hope that it doesn't do what it always does, but at the end of the day you don't truly know. This isn't something that you can just take antibiotics and it'll very be better in a week. It's a long, hard battle that you have absolutely no control over.

For me, personally, I have no idea how to handle it. Basically, I bottle it in completely until I just explode. I have a mental and emotional breakdown that leads into a massive anxiety attack. I make myself sick. I can't sleep. I can't eat. I can't do function knowing that this is going on. How do you carry on your normal, every day life, when one of those closest to you is basically dying and you can't do anything about dying and you cant do anything about it? This is a question I ask myself daily and I still don't know the answer. I probably never will.

All I can say is that you absolutely have to have faith in God that he's doing the best thing for you and your loved ones. It's all part of God's plan, whether you agree with it, whether you know why or not.

Pray and have faith.