I Feel Lonely, But I'm Not Alone.
Start writing a post
Health and Wellness

I Feel Lonely, But I'm Not Alone.

I'm not alone, yet I've never felt more lonely.

5745
I Feel Lonely, But I'm Not Alone.
ShunVMall

To everyone else, I look like a fun, happy person who has a bunch of friends. Everyone wants to get to know me, they'll come to me for advice, and they know they can always count on me for a fun adventure. They know I have a great family, I'm doing well in school, and from my Instagram and Twitter posts, I seem like the least lonely person in the world. But sadly, my heart and mind think differently.

I put on a front. I hide what I don't want others to see. My body language and laughter conveys one thing, but my heart truly knows what I'm feeling. I'm feeling lonely, but I'm not alone.

Having friends who love you, maybe even a boyfriend/girlfriend to comfort you, and a family who supports you in any action you make is great. You know you can always count on someone when you need to talk, you're never alone in that sense, but you still feel alone. You have people that understand you and who care about you, why are you alone?

Think of it this way:

You're at a party with friends, while you're dancing and laughing and singing at the top of your lungs, you think "wow, I have such a great life, I am content." Then you get a moment of calm and think to yourself that you've never felt more alone. How does this make sense? People would kill to have friends like you, stop thinking this way. But you can't; you feel alone.

Isolating yourself in your mind while not being isolated physically is tricky. You don't want to tell anyone you feel alone because they simply won't understand. Why would they when you aren't alone? No, I am not alone, but I am still lonely.

I never feel like anyone is like me even with a great relationship, friends, and a supportive family. I feel as if I'm the only one who thinks the way I do, acts the way I do, and I will never fit in. My anxiety gets heighten at the thought of being around said friends because I am afraid they will judge me or think of me as weird because to me, I am different than them. I cut people off at the blink of the eye when I feel like I am a burden. Maybe I ask too much of my friends, why do I do that? They say it's okay and that it's nothing, but I don't believe them? Sometimes I feel like nothing but a burden, but my friends still continue to want to be around me. It's the strangest thing.

One day, if my anxiety really kicks in and I am just having a rough time and need to talk, it's almost impossible to talk to someone. I have tons of friends to talk to, but I can't say anything. What if I scare them off? Again, I just feel like a burden and that no one will care or they won't know how to help me.

You aren't alone, stop doing this. Think of your friends, your family, your significant other. They are all rooting for you to succeed and be happy. You can do this.

I know I'm not alone, yet I have never felt more lonely.

Report this Content
This article has not been reviewed by Odyssey HQ and solely reflects the ideas and opinions of the creator.
the beatles
Wikipedia Commons

For as long as I can remember, I have been listening to The Beatles. Every year, my mom would appropriately blast “Birthday” on anyone’s birthday. I knew all of the words to “Back In The U.S.S.R” by the time I was 5 (Even though I had no idea what or where the U.S.S.R was). I grew up with John, Paul, George, and Ringo instead Justin, JC, Joey, Chris and Lance (I had to google N*SYNC to remember their names). The highlight of my short life was Paul McCartney in concert twice. I’m not someone to “fangirl” but those days I fangirled hard. The music of The Beatles has gotten me through everything. Their songs have brought me more joy, peace, and comfort. I can listen to them in any situation and find what I need. Here are the best lyrics from The Beatles for every and any occasion.

Keep Reading...Show less
Being Invisible The Best Super Power

The best superpower ever? Being invisible of course. Imagine just being able to go from seen to unseen on a dime. Who wouldn't want to have the opportunity to be invisible? Superman and Batman have nothing on being invisible with their superhero abilities. Here are some things that you could do while being invisible, because being invisible can benefit your social life too.

Keep Reading...Show less
houses under green sky
Photo by Alev Takil on Unsplash

Small towns certainly have their pros and cons. Many people who grow up in small towns find themselves counting the days until they get to escape their roots and plant new ones in bigger, "better" places. And that's fine. I'd be lying if I said I hadn't thought those same thoughts before too. We all have, but they say it's important to remember where you came from. When I think about where I come from, I can't help having an overwhelming feeling of gratitude for my roots. Being from a small town has taught me so many important lessons that I will carry with me for the rest of my life.

Keep Reading...Show less
​a woman sitting at a table having a coffee
nappy.co

I can't say "thank you" enough to express how grateful I am for you coming into my life. You have made such a huge impact on my life. I would not be the person I am today without you and I know that you will keep inspiring me to become an even better version of myself.

Keep Reading...Show less
Student Life

Waitlisted for a College Class? Here's What to Do!

Dealing with the inevitable realities of college life.

97110
college students waiting in a long line in the hallway
StableDiffusion

Course registration at college can be a big hassle and is almost never talked about. Classes you want to take fill up before you get a chance to register. You might change your mind about a class you want to take and must struggle to find another class to fit in the same time period. You also have to make sure no classes clash by time. Like I said, it's a big hassle.

This semester, I was waitlisted for two classes. Most people in this situation, especially first years, freak out because they don't know what to do. Here is what you should do when this happens.

Keep Reading...Show less

Subscribe to Our Newsletter

Facebook Comments