I’m afraid to trust you. I’m afraid that you being alone leads to harming yourself. I’m afraid that you’ll turn back to cutting as a means of coping with your issues. I'm afraid that you give that blade more validation that it will ever deserve. I’m afraid that the split second you are in isolation you will do something you regret. I’m afraid that you cannot be trusted to live on your own. I’m afraid that you think you need other people to watch over you in order to ensure you are safe.

I’m afraid to let you make decisions. I’m afraid that you lack self-control. I’m afraid that the choices you make frequently put you in difficult situations and also hurt you. I’m afraid to let you drink alcohol because you are not able to decide when to stop. I’m afraid that you make even worse decisions when you are under the influence. I’m afraid that you let your past instances with alcohol shape your ability to engage with others.

I’m afraid you’ll give up on yourself. I’m afraid you walk on such a thin line that one of these days you will push too far. I’m afraid you won’t be strong enough to believe in hope. I’m afraid that you’ll forget all of the times that you’ve conquered the toughest obstacles and forget about your strength. I’m afraid you will not keep fighting.

I’m afraid you don’t see your beauty. I’m afraid your judgement gets clouded by all of the negative qualities that overcast your value. I’m afraid you get so caught up in how others perceive you, you often forget to really see yourself. I’m afraid you get trapped in the negative thoughts more than focusing on the good ones. I’m afraid every time you look in the mirror you hate what you see. I’m afraid you’ll never be able to change that perception about yourself.

I’m afraid you think you are alone. I’m afraid that you still feel lonely even with the company of others. I'm afraid that you shut down every chance to interact with others. I’m afraid you do not feel connected to the world around you. I’m afraid that you forget you have people who are willing to support you and carry you through the toughest times. I’m afraid you are going to push everyone who is there for you away.

I’m afraid you do not feel like you have a purpose. I’m afraid you do not foresee a successful future. I’m afraid you neglect all of the possibilities that are in front of you. I’m afraid that you get so caught up in the present difficulties that you forget the ability to change and improve.

I’m afraid you forget who you are. I’m afraid you think the monsters you fight are greater than you. I’m afraid you forget that you are in control of your choices and do not have to repeat past mistakes. I’m afraid you cannot remember that your worth surpasses your pain, your join, and anything that has happened. I’m afraid that one of these days you will forget to tell yourself all of these things.

But most of all, I’m afraid you forget how to love yourself. I’m afraid that you won’t put yourself first. I’m afraid you’ll stop taking yourself on dates to your favorite places. I’m afraid the trauma you have experienced will take up all of the kindness in your heart. I’m afraid you will forget the things that make you happy. I’m afraid you will forget that you deserve to take the time to engage in those things. I’m afraid that you will stop nurturing and caring for yourself. I’m afraid that you will let the world change you and your pure heart. I’m afraid that you will let what has happened to you strip you from the innocence that once poured from your soul. I’m afraid that you will forget who you are and become someone else. I’m afraid that you’ll stop fighting to be that woman that is within your heart. I’m afraid that you will not think you matter. I’m afraid that you have forgotten that you love yourself and are on this earth for a reason, no matter how much you have been taught to fear yourself.

I’m afraid that you forget how brave you are, but I’m not afraid to believe that you deep down have the courage to stand up to each and every one of these fears. Keep facing them.