Eyes Are The Window To The Soul

Eyes Are The Window To The Soul

A troubled girl has to decide if letting someone in is going to cost her or make her feel more alive.
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I stared at him. He wasn’t looking in my direction yet, but a little more staring and he’d start to get the feeling we all know that someone was watching them. I’ve felt dead inside for as long as I can remember. My family was no good and everyone in my life has turned out the same.

He turns to find the person staring is me. I quickly try to make myself busy with getting out of the store as soon as possible. I saw my exit and was about a foot away from walking out the door into the foot traffic of New York City when he grabbed my wrist.

“Hey! What are you running away for?” He let my wrist go upon stopping me.

I’d been avoiding his eyes this entire time; for my sake and his. I slowly trailed my eyes up to his from the ground and had to try my very hardest not to gasp. His eyes were like steel, cold and hard, but his smile lines around his eyes contradicted them making you believe he was looking at you mischievously rather than seriously.

“Um. I- uh. I found what I- I found what I was looking for,” I looked away from his eyes before he could complete his thrall on me.

“What’s your name?” He smiled at me, I could tell without looking.

“Callie. Callie Love.” I didn’t ask for his. Everyone that went to Cornell University knew without a doubt the star 6’6” basketball player, Jerry Rhodes. His family came from money and while he enjoyed it, he loved basketball more. He went to this school because they had basketball and it would satisfy his parents rule to get a business degree. At least those are the rumors on campus.

“Nice to meet you, Callie. I’m-”

“Jerry Rhodes. You’re not the type of person that someone wouldn’t already know their name.”

“So you’ve at least heard some talk on campus then.”

“Yeah, I really just keep to myself and I actually have somewhere to be.” I try again for the door. I needed to get away from his gaze. I walked out the door.

“Now what’s this mysterious place that’s dragging you away from a good old-fashioned conversation?” He had that damn mischievous grin again.

“I don’t really wanna talk. Much less to you.” I kept pushing myself to move faster, but he always caught up with his damned long legs.

“Now why would you say that? What have I done to make you react like this towards me?”

“Do you really wanna know?” I stop dead in my tracks in the middle of Times Square making a few bystanders angry with me.

He stops in front of me only about a foot away and stares deep into my dead eyes, “Yes. I really want to know.”

I stared into his eyes, silent for a moment, thinking of how to phrase what I wanted to say without coming off too harsh until I realized I could feel my heart pounding in my chest. Whether it was from excitement, the look he was giving me, or the fact that after feeling dead for so long from all the bullshit my heart has been put through, I genuinely want to let someone in, but I can’t. I’ve been good on my own thus far I don’t need someone complicating things.

“I can’t talk about it.” I turn to start walking away again until Jerry grabs my wrist to pull me back.

“Can’t or won’t?” he’s standing closer to me now, like half a foot away.

“Won’t. Now let me leave.” He released my wrist from his grasp and stood there watching me walk away.

I turned at some point to see if he was still there, but couldn’t see through all the people crowding the sidewalk. I kept walking. I didn’t know what this all meant, but I’m sure I’d find out soon enough.


To be continued....

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2. "Does my hair look greasy?"

3. "We should probably clean tomorrow..."

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14. "I think I'm broke."

15. "What do I respond to this?"

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17. "Why are we so weird?"

18. "Do you think people will notice if I wear this 2 days in a row?"

19. "That guy is so stupid."

20. "Do I look fat in this?"

21. "Can I borrow your phone charger?

22. "Wanna go to the lib tonight?"

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To The Girl Who Doesn't Have It All Together

You are going to be OK.

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Does life ever hit you so hard that the only thing you can do is laugh? Everything in life comes so fast. Days speed by and when you think back at the last three months all you can remember is how many dumb moments you've had and you've had no other choice than to laugh at yourself.

Your mistakes blend together and the only way you can organize your thoughts is going through all the pictures your friends have documented.

It's funny every once in a while but eventually, the laugh turns into a force of habit. You feel so stressed out about everything that you just opt into doing nothing to avoid all the responsibilities life throws at you.

I've come to find that who I used to be has become lost in who I am now and everything I do now is about pleasing other people around me. I find myself agreeing to do too many things at one time out of fear of disappointing other people, that I never have time to sit to myself.

You've turned into the person that does not think about what happens next, you just live life day by day and hope for the best.

You leave in the mornings with no sense of what that day is going to hold. You have turned into the person it is easy to make fun of and you learn to take it and roll with the everyday punches because you'd rather feel loved and associated with laughter than someone who can't take any jokes.

You feel pressured to uphold the clueless nature and please the people that enjoy your airhead presence but you know there is more to you than a stupid comment and a bad joke. You feel like you are getting lost in the stereotype you have formed for yourself and start believing the comments your friends make about you.

I promise, you are more than a bad joke, you have so much more to offer and you are not other people's words.

You are you, even if you don't know who that is yet. There is always time to change, there is always time to be who you want to be. You do not have to impress anyone, you can be whoever you want to be at any time you decide to be that person. You are in control of your own life and no one has any say in the decisions you make. It's never too late. Take a deep breath, be yourself, don't lose yourself, love yourself.

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