My sophomore year in college was a time in my life where I had no idea who I was or what I wanted. I was trying to find myself and learn how to grow into the type of person I eventually wanted to be. I had sworn off dating, thinking I was doomed to only meet the most douche-bag type of guys, people that would stunt my personal growth. Then I met you, and the world got a little more clear. I knew you were different than anyone I had ever met, although I didn’t quite know what that meant at the time I gravitated towards you, and my life slowly became more sunny through your presence.
I don’t think either of us (mostly you) knew what we were getting into. Growing as a person is hard enough on your own, trying to figure out how to grow with someone at the same time is a whole different story. Now, I wasn’t exactly whole when you met me, and I was all dark and twisty on the inside. I tried to push you away time and time again, I gave love without really accepting any, and everything I felt at once was always overwhelming. But you stayed when most people would have left. You figured out how to love me and then helped me figure out how to love myself. Even though you didn’t understand a lot that I felt or went through you always tried. You showed me that not everyone leaves and that you can always overcome hard times if you try hard enough.
Our relationship is full of raw emotion and passion, we love each other so fiercely. It’s the best type of relationship to have, but sometimes it gets messy and heated and hard. We’ve faced things I didn’t know we could make it through and we’ve almost reached our breaking point plenty of times. But when I look at you, I know that you and we are worth more than the fights and hard times. I think a lot of people break up when they forget that and the problems seem too big. But we always cry and hug and makeup, mostly because you hate when I cry and we just can’t stay mad at each other. I’ve never met someone who makes it so easy to fall back into place. When I though I would be better off alone I managed to find someone so loving, smart, compassionate, and bright, someone who has every good quality anyone could have.
You’ve made me a better person all around. From making me be nicer to people, getting me to care about school more, and dragging me to the gym countless of times. You’ve always pushed me to do better, be better. I rolled my eyes and probably complained the whole time, but I always low key enjoy it. I never knew I could enjoy being around one person for so long and I always rolled my eyes when girls called their boyfriend their best friend. But now I get it, I like you and being around you more than I like anyone else, why would you not be my best friend? All the inside jokes and secrets we share, it’s almost like we have our own language. You make me laugh the most genuine laugh and it makes me lighter on the inside. You make my life more adventurous and over all enjoyable. Even though I don’t always show it I love you an amount I didn’t know was possible and your presence to me has been life altering. I’ve never really needed anyone, or let myself need anyone, but you slipped into my life so effortlessly it’s as if you were always there. I’m lucky you stayed for all hard parts and I can’t wait for all the good parts ahead. I’m glad that I found someone so sunny that made my dark and twisty edges, not so dark and twisty. I never expected to have this, but I’m glad that I do.
